<TABLE id=HB_Mail_Container height="100%" cellSpacing=0 cellPadding=0 width="100%" border=0 UNSELECTABLE="on"><TBODY><TR height="100%" width="100%" UNSELECTABLE="on"><TD id=HB_Focus_Element vAlign=top width="100%" background="" height=250 UNSELECTABLE="off">This truly is a great thread...the real question is...how to do get fat as a baby and stay that way? At 2 yrs old, I was actually bigger than my sister who was 2 years older than I was. Basically, it was negelect...."let's feed the baby until she is satisfied and won't cry anymore" and that is the way I learned to cope with situations....I was a middle child that was truly in the middle, "stuffed" inbetween the "golden" first child, the overachiever and the baby.
I also come from a long line of obsessive compulsives. My parents were both very small but smoked 3-4 packs of cigarettes a day each. It was only after my dad quit smoking that he became overweight whereas my mother could never quit. Both succumbed to lung cancer. Their addictive qualities were passed down to their 4 daughters. We all have issues. My issue just happens to be food. Try as I might, like all of us, food fills my thoughts a good percentage of the day. It's always there. When I feel good and want to celebrate w/friends, we go to dinner. When I feel happy it's there...lonely, it's there....depressed...it's there. Always there with me.
Right now, I'm trying to refocus my thoughts. I have found that if I go to the gym directly after work, I'm basically too tired to "give in". I'm really working hard and actually seeing some small results which are encouraging to me. I keep thinking that if I do this long enough, it will become a habit and in the future I'll not mind going. I have already realized that if I get too close to my house from work, I can easily talk myself out of working out then the cravings will take over. Therefore, I feel in danger of a relapse at all times. My question is this...will these feelings ever to away?
Oh well, thanks for being there and listening.
Cyndi
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