Twirpo75

So a few days ago I posted that I couldn't reach the 100lbs lost mark. Well.. I did it. I finally did it. It has not been easy but if it had, it wouldn't have been worth it. I've noticed so many things about myself lately that I am proud of. With every pound lost, a little more of the fun inner girl comes out. I went inner tubing two weeks ago. I've not done that since I was like 10. I still have about 50 lbs to lose. But do you know the last time I had ONLY 50 lbs to lose?! ME EITHER! My rings are too big, my watch is too big, my clothes are too big. And it's AWESOME!! It's worth all the tears and frustration. It's worth all of it. Fight hard my friends. You are literally fighting for your life. And dammit... WE CAN DO THIS!!

I'm about 9 months out from surgery and CANNOT hit the 100lbs lost mark. I've stalled at 95 lbs for about 3 months now. And because I am an emotional eater, every time I weigh myself and I'm still at the same place, I grab a bag is pico de gallo chips. It's a vicious cycle that I can't stop. I thought by now I would be at goal but I still have 58 lbs until then. OMG. I'm so frustrated with myself. So disappointed. I see shows with people who have eating disorders and I really feel like I do too, just the opposite end of the spectrum. Please tell me I am not alone in this daily struggle. Please tell me other people have had this happen. And please tell me how to make it stop. Other than not eating the chips. I brought peaches to work today instead of chips.

I've learned so much. I agree that I learned I don't need food to be happy. I also learned that I am beautiful inside and out. Even if I don't often feel it. The hard lessons came too. I learned what food addiction looks like when you are on the outside looking in. That was a hard one because it made me reflect on my whole family. But I never voice anything negative. My filter is strongly in place. I've learned how to really love myself and everyone around me. And it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I don't avoid mirrors and I give out lots of free hugs.

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I thought my memory issues were just me going crazy!! And I thought I was the only one who had this issue. It's good to know others have struggled with this! I forgot how to spell my nephews name one day. I helped raise the kid. But couldn't remember if it was Tristan or Tristen. Then I started noticing I was forgetting other things. Everyone around me says it's just because I am almost 40 (Shh!) but I knew it was more than that. Depression was a big issue for a while too. That one was a real struggle. It's already something I have dealt with for years. But after surgery I really felt like I had lost my best friend. food wasn't there for me anymore. It was a real stage of mourning. That's something I wasn't at all prepared for. I live 5 hours from my family so it's just my son and I. I felt alone in life and alone in the fight to get healthy. It was hard. But I know from past experiences that Prozac helped, so I got back on it. I feel so much better now. So much negativity has finally left me. This life is defiantly not for the weak. It's a struggle. But we can all struggle together. =)

I usually wake up between 3 and 4 feeling like total crap. But only for a little while. It's a strange feeling. Like so hungry that I feel like I am STARVING, but nauseous too. I hate it. I just drink some juice and it calms down. So I calm down. Then I watch Netfix until my day starts at 630 and then drag my tired butt to bed at 8pm. Even with Ambian or Lunesta I don't sleep like I did when I was younger. I don't think mine is surgery related though. I hope yours gets better soon!!

Three days ago I cut about 12" of hair off because it was thinning. I got my protein, I take Biotin, I use Vioxin shampoo. You name it, I do it. I was told it comes back and I do see some short hairs in the mix. So I think it does. I heard it stops falling out around the 6 month mark. Which I am almost up to. I lost about 1/3 of my hair. If not more. So, fingers crossed it gets better!! =)

CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are not the first or last to freak out about the surgery. Take comfort in knowing this makes you normal! I was pretty freaked out. But it honestly wasn't the most horrible thing I've been through. It wasn't Disneyland, but it's managable. You can do this! Just stay calm. You won't regret it in the long run. I know I don't. But I'm almost 6 months out. Everything is going to be fine. And you now have a bunch of really amazing friends you can come to for help. We get it. And we are all here for you. Good luck tomorrow! You're gonna do GREAT!! *HUGS*

First off, I'm so sorry. We have enough stress in our lives without people adding to it. When I started this process, I told everyone about it. I wanted people to know I was LOUD and PROUD that I was taking conrol of my life back. I have no shame. I will say that when my Fiance told some of his friends that I don't know, I was upset. Because then I had total strangers asking me about my journey. I understand your want and need for privacy. And I'm sorry that was violated. All you can do now is voice your hurt to those family members and from now on, keep your private stuff private. But don't be private because you are ashamed. Hold your head up high. You're a WARRIOR!! Congratulations on your journey!!

I'm 5 months out and have probably half the hair I did a year ago. The first month after surgery I was big on Protein. Then for a month or two I slacked off. I tried to get it in, but life was nothing but STRESS. So I got what I could. About 2 months ago I started being very, very diligent about taking my Vitamins and Biotin. I get my protein everyday. But still my hair falls out. I have long hair and I have no plans to cut it until after my wedding. So I just work with what I have until then. I did read an article that said most people lose a lot of hair in the first 6 months and then it starts to grow back as your body chemistry equals out. So I am hoping that in the next month I start to see some hair coming back. I've also been really stressed out. So that could be part of it. Let's hope it get's better or we all look GREAT with short hair!! Crys

My hair is going crazy on me. I have pretty long hair. And it's kinda thin, but really curly. Lately it has been dead and frizzy. And now it's starting to come out like crazy! I've been taking Biotin but not like I should. I am starting today though! Every day I comb it and it looks like I am flushing a cat down the toilet! I'll be destroyed if my hair doesn't go back to what it used to be. ='/

I hade my surgery Oct 6, 2014. So I am almost 3 months out. I've thrown up only once. And that was about 3 weeks after surgery because I ate a little too much. But it wasn't horrendous. I've been through worse. I've dealt with a lot more mentally then physically. This process has tested me in every way possible. But I'm thinner now then I have been in a least 20 years. I don't regret any of it. I only wish I had a support system that understood how hard this is. I've found a lot of inner peace by reading these forums. It's good to know I don't travel this road alone. Just remember that nothing worth having comes easy. Like a Phoenix you just have to rise from the ashes. =) It's worth it. I promise! =)

I think about two weeks out I was in a cloud of regret. But now I am 2 months and 10 days out and I don't regret it. Guess what I found a week ago...? MY COLLARBONES!! I haven't seen them since I was about 13. But they are coming back!! And I can cross my legs easier and tie my shoes without holding my breath. No regrets.

First off I wish you the best of luck. Realistically, it sounds like you have a good chance of getting it approved with everything that's going on. I truly hope they let you get it. At my highest I was 352. But I'm also 5'11" so I carry my weight different. I had quite a lot on my belly but I balanced it out with a big butt and linebacker shoulders. I'm not positive, but I think some of my people came from Norway because we are built large and in charge. Anyway, I too had chronic back pain. I also have scoliosis (probably the only reason I didn't get to 6'1") and I deal with that. As I have lost weight my back pain has gotten better, but even 72 lbs down it isn't gone. It's a process. And there have been days when my back felt worse than when I started this all. Please, PLEASE do not go into this thinking it is a miracle cure to back pain. It takes time and it takes a lot of work on our part. And even then it may not go totally away. I would suggest to start working on losing weight now while you’re waiting for your answer. It makes post surgery so much easier. You said you have a 12 month old daughter. Congratulations! Babyies are awesome! Your body right now is carrying the same weight it did while you were pregnant. It's like being 12 months pregnant all the time. That weight pulls on your spine. So I have another suggestion. While I was losing weight I went to Wal-Mart and got a tank top that is like Spanx. Only easier to get on. It's two layers of fabric and it will look small, but trust me, you can get one on. I cut the boob part out of mine because it smashed my girls. They didn't like that. But what it does is hold the weight up, close to you. Not pulling on you. It also keeps you from getting folds in your skin and rashes. I wear mine all day, every day. I cannot put into words the relief it has brought. Not only does it make me look slimmer, it helps my back so, so much. It cost about $20 and it’s by underwear. They have one that is like $15 and just one layer fabric. Don't be fooled. It doesn't do much. I don't like it. I have 3 or 4 of the double layer and LOVE them! Trust me on that. It will help the rash too by keeping it open to dry. One piece of really good news. I was told that down the road if I have rashes like that it will allow my surgeon to do a tummy tuck as part of the surgery cost. I don't know how all of that works, but if it means a free tummy tuck, I'M IN! So your rash issue might be good to have later on down the road. I've never had one, but in about another 80 lbs, I might figure out a way to get one. That sounds horrible! SORRY!

I'm a Daddy's Girl still at 39. I get what you're saying. And I have two suggestions. One, approach him and talk to him about it. Just the two of you, alone. Remind him you love him and you're more than happy to help him through the process is he needs it. And he will. Tell him you want your future kids to know their Grandpa. And two, this is the hard one. Just love him. Accept his choice if he says he doesn't want it. Don't push him into something he might regret. The surgery is great, but it's not for everyone. Even if we want it to be. Love him no matter his weight as he has obviously loved you very much. Be the light in his darkness. It sounds like he's having a hard time and us Daddy's Girls can light them up like no other person can. Just love him.

The only thing I obsessed over was the weight I had to lose for surgery. Which was 34 lbs for me. I tried everything. I ended up only being successful when my PCP put me on Phentermine. It was a miracle for me. It didn't wire me out like a crack head. It just gave me the energy I ended to get that weight off. I swear there were days I would jump on the scale twice in a day to check my progress. Want to know what good it did me? The day I went for my final weigh in with the surgeon we all got an email from the company I work for saying you no longer had to lose weight for the surgery. <<That was me. And then was me. I worked so hard!! But now, 71 lbs down, all day, everyday!!

I didn't meet my first real boyfriend until I was 24. And he was my first at everything. He made it very clear that he preferred bigger girls so I felt comfortable with him. It was the first time I ever let my guard down and enjoyed my body. He told me something I will never forget and I keep in the front of my brain. We were talking about my past insecurities with guys and he said "Did you expect to shock them when you got naked? That they would jump up and yell "You're fat?!"? As if they didn't know when they laid down with you?" He's right. And as a now 39 yr old engaged woman I can tell you, there are men who like heavy women. They love it. We all have our standards. I prefer tall, thick men. I ended up with a tall, skinny one, but I haven't had the chance to fatten him up yet. =) But I will once we are married. There is a key for every lock girl. Love yourself, and love your body. Even the part you hate most might be what your dream man has been looking for all along. Embrace it!! =)

I had sleeve surgery 5 weeks ago. I've only lost 21 lbs. Is that normal? I feel like I am not losing any weight at all and all of this was for nothing. I suffer for nothing. That's really how I feel. Please help!

Thank you everyone. It's all so new to me. I read the article that was posted and I think I understand more now. It does seem like a lot to lose 21 lbs in a month or so. But when it just stops I assume I had done nothing wrong and just failed. It's crazy but I think this whole process is 90% mental. Which I didn't expect going into it. =) I appreciate all of you!!

I just put up a topic because I was sleeved on Oct 6th too and I've lost only 21 lbs. I don't eat sweets and crap but the scale isn't moving. I don't get it and I'm really frustrated.

Or lack there of. My question is simply this, When you decided to have surgery, were your friends and family supportive? After surgery were they still? Ok. I had two questions. I have no one in my life who has had this surgery. Or any weight loss surgery. Both of my parents are in their 60's and morbidly obese too. Before the surgery I felt like everyone, including them, were supporting me. When I had the surgery they came to stay with me to help me with my 12 yr old son. And to make sure everything went ok. They were going to stay a month. When they showed up I was one week into my two week pre-op liquid diet. And I had been doing great. But my Mom brought a bunch of food with her. Including Peanut Butter brownies. No lie. Like 30 or 40 of them in boxes. I asked her to please not bring junk food in the house. She kept saying they were for my son. And she would bring in other crap food and say it was for my son. The day before surgery she went to the commissary and brought in several packages of Cookies and pop-tarts. I was hurt and offended. And I let her know that that was how I felt and I didn't appreciate her ignoring my wishes in my home. My son is 12 and the perfect BMI for his height and weight. He's a Quarterback for his middle school football team. Totally healthy kid. I don't keep crap Snacks in my house because I refuse to guide him into this lifestyle like I was guided by my mom. She doesn't get that. Anyway, two days after surgery my mom had a tantrum and they packed up and left. I've spoken to her only twice since then. I'm hurt beyond words. When I talked to her the two times she acted as though nothing had happened. And now I'm not sure what to do. So I am wondering if any of you dealt with this kind of thing. And how did you resolve it? If you were able to resolve it. Thanks in advance!! Crystal

In a way it's good to know I am not the only one who has struggled with this. But it hurts my heart to know other people are too. This should be a positive experience but for me so far it has only been one struggle after another. I see the weight coming off now so it feels a little more real to me now. But it's still very hard to know that the support I thought I had wasn't there. I'm so, so, so, grateful for this page and being able to come here to learn from other people. Thank you everyone for your kind words!! Good luck to all of us!! =)