takingcontrol48

I'm also having vgs on Monday and having some weird thoughts. Mainly since I've always struggled with my weight I can't even imagine how it will be to not have that crutch. On the other hand i m having some 'magical' thinking that I should have been able to do this without surgery., that I'm just a weak person, this is what the majority of people who don't have a weight problem think. This gets to you after a lifetime of hearing it from even you 'thin' family members. But the magical thinking continues... there is a part of me that feels because this is "the easy route" that if something bad happens to me in surgery that I will have deserved it because I should have been able to control this on my own and I'm finding it difficult to imagine myself without the extra weighT. Has anyone else experienced these type of negative thoughts before surgury?