Kiki2004
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From the album: Before
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Overwhelmed at the thought of the new way of life I will have to adapt
Kiki2004 replied to MauiGirl5555's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
i am right there with you...esp if you are very heavy and have been your whole life, like me, it is terrifying to process that my entire life is changing...it's not that i am going into this expecting it to suck but the FACT of the matter is, it MIGHT....and i was to be prepared for that...and i also have panic disorder so i cannot, not stress...i do not fear the pain....the pain i am in on a daily basis is has me prepared for what may happen in regards to that...and just like everything, it is easy to say "oh, you'll be fine, you'll get used to everything" but each person is different... @@MauiGirl5555 we can do this, may suck a little, may suck a lot, but either way. we got this -
2 days before sugery and feeling conflicted
Kiki2004 replied to Idahospud's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
...perhaps he is afraid you will get skinny and leave him so he is trying to beat you to it? my husband and i have had long talks about this...my husband loves big women, that's why he married me, well that and my stunning intellect, sharp wit and fierce self-esteem but seriously, i was worried if he would still be attracted to me when i lost weight...he promises me he loves me, no matter the size...but i still wonder, when he grabs my ample bottom as i walk by, if he really would be ok...i have to trust that he will. -
food addicts unite...i have just begun the 6 month process and i am already freaking out about the food...i eat something now and think "i can't have this after surgery"...i shared this with my husband who said "well stop eating it now then"...lol, he is so funny if i could do that, duh! i have begun cutting out things and will continue to do so that way maybe it won't be as hard when i HAVE to do it...but it sounds like i may not have a choice in the matter!
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HOW DO PEOPLE NOT NOTICE MY WEIGHT LOSS?
Kiki2004 replied to sherripark's topic in POST-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
sherripark: those of us with more to loose will probably not get much recognition until it is a triple digit number. i have lost (and gained) 50, 60, 75 pounds in the past and it was rarely ever noticed, while my friend would loose 15 and get oohs and aahs until the cows came home. my husband always noticed but he also sees me naked hang in there and know when someone does say something you can come back with "thank you and i am not done yet!" -
HOW DO PEOPLE NOT NOTICE MY WEIGHT LOSS?
Kiki2004 replied to sherripark's topic in POST-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
is your brother big too? maybe he is jealous? that's not cool...but you keep going and eventually he won't be able to deny it! -
well, i called the insurance company, told them what center i want to use and they are sending out my paperwork...still trying to wrap my head around all of this...there is so much information and only so many hours in a day!
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From the album: Before
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From the album: Before
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From the album: Before
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From the album: Before
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From the album: Before
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From the album: Before
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AWESOME! keep going!
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reading some of these posts is freaking me out...hubby just asked if i am ready to do this...said no...he asked me again 3 times...each time i gave the same answer....then i told him to ask me again in 6 months (my ins waiting period)
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If you are not ready for any possibility then you are not ready. You need to be on board 110% because this is a big thing and not the easy way out as some stupid people say....This will be your life for the rest of your life...Make sure it is right for you. Research is what you need to do and lots of it! okay
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i don't even have a DR picked out yet and i am freaking out about eating before/after surgery...i eat a cup of yogurt and think, "after surgery i will only be able to eat half of this" or i take a glorious swig of my coke and think "after surgery i can't even have this anymore"...i know i have got to STOP this thinking...my obsession with food is part of what got me to this point...so when i start to think of all that i am going to miss i remind myself of all that i am going to welcome into my life...and that helps me get out of my own head
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my given name is vicki, which is hard for most children to say...when my best friend's son started talking he called me kiki...around the same time i met my future husband and he started calling me kiki bear...eventually he dropped the "bear"...now he just calls me kiki and has since we were married in 2004
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i am sure you have had bad days before, and you will again, you're human...you just gotta try and make them happen less and less i guess, but don't beat yourself up...maybe think back to all you have been through to get to where you are...help that give you the strength to get through the times you want something bad for you...and make sure you give yourself credit for what you ARE doing...45 minutes of exercise a day...that's great! and maybe try to increase your Water intake...i have heard when you hit a plateau that may help you get back on a losing trend....good luck and hang in there!
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Did anyone start their journey weighing over 400lbs?
Kiki2004 replied to MaureenVA's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
i have been scouring these forums ALL DAY looking for an answer to that same question! i am over 450 (have not weighed myself for a while) and just want to find some people that can empathize. our struggle, though the same, is very different from those who don't have as much to loose. i look at some peoples BEGIN weights and i'm like "that's my GOAL weight"! i have just begun my journey, have not even been approved for surgery yet, but i would be happy to make this journey with you! as soon as i have fleshed out my story, or at least the cliff notes, i will send you a pm.
