healthynow75

My surgery date is November 5, 2014 @4:15. I'm so excited about this. All my life I have struggled with my weight. All my life I've heard from family and friends say "You have a pretty face" you just need to lose a little weight. I've hated hearing those words. Then I would lose 40-50 lbs only to gain them back and more. I've gone to the gym and spent hours working out going the whole week and not seeing results only to lose motivation. I have a 5 year old daughter and i feel so bad because I'm always so exhausted n too tired to Take her to the park and play n run with her. I want to enjoy her while she still young. I want to take pictures with her and create memories but I don't like taking pictures because I'm so embarrassed on how big I've gotten. People are always staring and I hate it. I took her to the amusement parks this summer and I was so embarrassed because she wanted me to get on rides with her but I didn't fit. I thought I was able to fit in one but the seat belt wouldn't close and the employee told me I couldn't ride if I couldn't put it on. I felt like I was walking the plank of shame while everyone watched me struggle getting out of it. I'm tired of feeling That way. I want to feel sexy again and I want to be able to take pictures with my daughter n look beautiful again. I want my daughter and I to do things together that are active. I want her to remember her childhood as fun.