Indigo 1991 thank you very much for the words of encouragement. I really need them. As if the whole process isnt enough to deal with, my boyfriend of eight years isnt really as supportive as I would have hoped for. But I refuse to let anyone else make my decision for me. Im not asking anyone for help in paying for what my insurance doesnt so therefore I feel like they should not have a say. His concern is that the people he has seen that have had gastric bypass look sickly. And he says he doesn't want me to get like that. But I been dealing with being overweight for far too long. Ive tried diets,pills, and everything else associated to dieting and have not been successful. So for that...I am on my journey with or without him.