Essence46

It will be 5 months for me next week. I used to feel that what for awhile. It has recently (within the last few weeks) gotten better. I used to dread eating because of how it made my chest and belly feel. I didn't know if something was wrong. If I was eating too fast, not chewing up my food enough or what. It's not so bad now though. If I feel it now, it's usually because I am rushing to eat. It will get getter just hang in there.

Congrats!! That's awesome!

I have got to do better with the Protein Bobbyswife. I know. I am going to start boiling two eggs at night so I can have them for breakfast. I did eat a protein bar and some yogurt though.

Megan00 I think that plays a big part in it. In my case, the doctor said I was a little smaller than most of his patients. He said if he made mine the same size, I would lose too much weight so he made it a little bigger.

I honestly have no idea. I asked the doctor how much of my stomach he took and he wouldn't tell me. He did say he made my sleeve a little larger then most because he didn't want me to get too small. *shrug*

Great points made by everyone. When I made the decision to have WLS, I told the people closest to me. Some of them were receptive of it and others weren’t. As long as my husband was on board, I was good. My mother was not happy and thought since she told me she didn’t want me to have it that I wouldn’t. She was shocked that I was moving forward anyway despite her disapproving. I remember saying to her, my kids, etc. that I was not telling them for them to try and talk me out of it. Instead, I was telling them because I thought they should know what I was going to do. That my mind was made it and it was something I had to do for me. I am not at all ashamed of having WLS. I just don’t think it’s everyone’s business. It’s no different from me sharing or not sharing any other intimate details of my life. However, since my surgery, I have told a few people. Some I told voluntarily; others I told if they asked. I am sure I will tell me people eventually. At some point, I do want to share my story and be an inspiration to others. Even throughout the 6 month process before the surgery, I had so many people (even at the WLS office) say to me “You don’t need surgery. You are not that big”. I found myself defending myself to them which really annoyed me. If other WLS patients were questioning me, I could only imagine the questions and negativity I would receive from others. I was a sick woman with numerous illnesses. I was taking 6 pills a day for those illnesses. Today, at almost 5 months later, I am off all medications. All!! I only take my required Vitamins every day. WLS saved my life and I am not ashamed of it. I don’t know if I will ever post it on my Facebook page or anything like that but I will share my story. Right now, I just can’t and don’t want to deal with all of the questions and negativity that comes along with it. Just yesterday a friend said to me “You had WLS so why do you still work out every day when you don’t need to? The weight is going to come off anyway so why bother”. I was thoroughly annoyed by that. In the meantime until I share my story, I will focus on me. I still have some internal “fat girl” issues I need to work on.

I have decided to put my scale away for a while. I have been getting on it every other day. If I gain a pound or two, I am panicking and I become afraid to eat anything. That only makes it worse because I am not getting enough calories then. I am driving myself crazy. LOL!

That is wonderful news!

I am so glad I am not alone. I was the opposite too. I avoided pictures, going out, shopping, and looking in the mirror has often as I could. I was embarrassed of my own self. My self-esteem was gone. Even now at almost 50 pounds lighter, I take pictures and don't even recognize the person in them. I am afraid I will look in the mirror and always see the fat, ugly girl. I often think to myself this can't be me. This is not the person I see when I look in my mirror. I know it's a mind thing. I have to recondition myself, my thinking from the negativity I feed myself for most of my adult life. I am determined to look in the mirror one day and see “Me”.

I had a banana and a bowl of cereal at 8:45 after I finished working out. I was starving at 10 so I had a few Ritz crackers with peanut butter. It’s 11:45 and I am hungry again.

Hey there. I had surgery on Jun 18th. My weight loss has stalled a little but I am still losing inches. I am currently at 49 pounds. I am trying not to let it bother me. I think part of the problem is I don't eat enough. How are things going with you.