MariaW

I am down to 182 this morning... My weight lost is slow but steady. Seems I stay the same weight for quite a while then drop a couple pounds.
I still struggle with not being able to go to the bathroom very well. It could be 5 days before I go. Not the norm for me, I used to go every day. I don't like to have to take stuff to make me go, so its hard on me. I went shopping yesterday and was able to fit into a size large. Its still hard for me to not go for the xl size. I have no idea what size bra I wear at this point or undies..lol Guess I need to start shopping for them too...
I became a grandmother last night...greatest feeling ever...
Pictures are from a month ago :-)

So I was down to 191.4 and so excited about that! I was looking so forward to being under 190 I could almost taste it... But this past weekend (2/7/15) my sister had a baby shower for my oldest daughter in NC. This is my first grandchild and I just can't wait. Everyone was saying how skinny I was and I guess it went to my head. I was eating like a pig, I had so many M&M's it wasn't funny. and cake and dips and chips and everything I have stayed away from for 3 months... I came home and weighed myself Monday morning and I was up 4 pounds! OMG 4 POUNDS!! I feel like a failure... so pathetic I am to eat like that... I did get sick a couple times but just kept eating! I am home now and back to eating the way I have been and today I was down almost 2 pounds. I need to get back on track, I need to get back to working out and not pigging out on food. any help would be appreciated.. and words of advice, recipes anything to help me get back on track! I want that 189!!! it is my next goal!

Hello all Or anyone who might read my posts.... I have been struggling to lose weight even with the surgery. I tend to have stalls almost every week for weeks. I am 7 weeks out and so close to onederland its not funny. I can even taste it (no pun intended) I struggled pretty bad over the holidays, office parties and food and cookies and treats, OH MY! Thank god my sleeve does not like sweets too much so I have been throwing up a lot lately. A LOT! we went out to dinner for Christmas Eve and I ended up in the bathroom sick... then we went to dinner two days ago and I think I had my first dumping syndrome attack or something. the minute I was done eating I felt instantly sick to my stomach, I knew I had to throw up. We went shopping right after and I ended up in 2 bathrooms throwing up, Diarrhea, chills, shakes, sweats, you name it I had it. The good news is, I lost 3 pounds the next day...however that was yesterday and we went to visit our Italian side of the family and again cookies and italian pastries..I throw up all the way home, but this morning I was a pound heavier. UGH. I am now 202.4 I was 201.4 yesterday...SO CLOSE to onederland!! So today I have tried hard to get my head away from food and think about how good it is going to taste to be under 200. I'm praying this happens by new years, but again the dreaded period is approaching and so is New Years....But I'm seriously needing to stay away from the bad foods, I hate throwing up and its happening every day. I have a problem with eating slow, and that stinks, and I also have a problem with waiting after I eat to drink, all this makes my food come back up...I'M TRYING HARDER now! I set a timer after I eat so I know when it is safe to drink again. I'm trying to rid myself of the cookies and snacking, its so hard, I wish I could say this surgery was a cure for my eating issues but it isn't. It's up to me to do this, and damn it i am going to do this! Why did I put myself threw so much just to continue my bad eating? I think not! It feels so good to feel my bones again, when I lay down I can feel my hip bone, and ribs and shoulder blades, so cool.
I am walking but I know I need to step up even my exercise plan. And I plan to! we just put a bid on a house, so thats scary not sure we will get it since there were 4 bids on this house. if its meant to be it will be. I'm going to try to attach a picture of my face, before surgery and after, and one day I will be brave enough to do a body shot. I still wear the clothes I wore since before surgery, they are getting big, but for some reason I can't bring myself to try on smaller clothes, I don't know why....anyway, Here's hoping you all are doing well and that the coming year we all reach our goals...my tiny good is Onederland! :-) by the way if my picture uploads...can you see a difference? not sure if I can... stats are Starting weight 244, weight at surgery 218, current weight 202.4

So I have not lost any weight in 2 days...disappointing! I am stuck at 221. I was so looking forward to being under 220. but not this time..So I started to reevaluated what I am eating (Drinking) and I know I was adding fruit to my shakes and thought, oh I better stop that!! so I did last night and today.... and then there was my little snacking I did yesterday on peanut butter pretzels. I only had like 5 total and they are those tiny little square ones... but regardless I was not supposed to have them..so this morning I threw them in the trash... today so far I have been really good and plan to be for the next 5 days. I really want to be under 220. its been a really long time since I was under that weight. I feel like exercise is one of the most important tools and I do walk, but I think I need to add in weights as well. I have an entire curves gym in my basement so I think my next goal is to start using those machines. I am sure I will be very weak after surgery, but I will do what I can and work myself up to them after surgery....
Feeling excited about the surgery...still nervous.. I think I am more worried about the pain afterwards and the gas pains in my chest that everyone talks about...and then the pain in my throat from the tubes that will be down there...and then I worry about possibly needing my gallbladder out like alot of people post about. I know they say a 20% chance of that but I keep reading post that people needed theirs out. Scary!.. I am afraid of ending up dehydrated...and most of all I am afraid that I will go back to my old ways and gain everything I will lose back. So scary. They told us in group that we get one honeymoon stage so enjoy it for as long as I can...that once you start gaining you can't go back to the honeymoon stage....So I hope I can stay in that stage forever. My boyfriend and I are Italian and we love food and our families love to feed us...its hard, I am sure everyone has their reasons for eating... I pray that this weekend when we go to his family's house that they understand I am ON A DIET (famous last words) and I can't have pasta and meatballs and bread! fingers crossed they leave me alone with just eating a salad. :-) ok, I better get back to work.....

well here I am, just one week before my sleeve surgery. I can honestly say I am very excited to get this over with. I'm also nervous about the gas pain that everyone talks about and also just pain in general. I'm afraid of dumping...and what that feels like. but all in all I am excited to get this thing going. Now the shakes have been hard. I can do them but I am starving and with Halloween here and gone having candy in the house didn't help. So I have had a couple small pieces of candy but have still managed to loss weight. I am down to 220.8 this morning. So YEAH its still working! I will make a solid effort to NOT eat anymore candy. Its really hard but I don't have to tell any of you that.
I know the surgery is my only chance.
I will try to post as much as possible from now on to let you all know how it is going.
any positive ideas on what we can eat afterwards would be great help....say prayers for me please that this goes well with no complications :-)

I began my weight loss journey In August 19th when I went to my doctors because I wasn't feeling well and she weighed me in at 244. I asked her for diet pills and told her I was considering weight loss surgery. She didn't approve of either but did write me a script for Belviq. As of today's date I have lost 19.4 pounds since that visit. But I did start my weight lose journey as well. On Sept. 3rd I went to the seminar at the hospital I work for and where they will also be doing my surgery. It was a very positive seminar and things started rolling right along from there. The following week I was in the office meeting with the shrink and nutritionist.
Sept. 18th I met with the surgeon for the first time. Still very positive. I had a list of things I needed to do, but most were already done, I still needed to go to cardiologist and get blood work done. Blood work came back that my vitamin D levels were low and I needed to start taking calcium. from there I went to the cardiologist who gave me the 2 thumbs up that I was cleared for surgery. Then I called the insurance specialist and she told me I met all requirements and gave me my surgery date of Nov 11th! OMG I got so freaked out. I want this but at the same time I am so scared of everything that comes along with it. So my next visit is Oct 30th it is my pre-admission day and Iwill need to be there from 7:30am till 3pm. I have to take a day off with no pay... then I guess they will tell me if I need to do the liquid diet or not. So today I am 225.4 and feeling pretty good about that. scared about hair loss, scared about complications, scared of how life will change, but also excited to start this weight loss journey!

I began my weight loss journey In August 19th when I went to my doctors because I wasn't feeling well and she weighed me in at 244. I asked her for diet pills and told her I was considering weight loss surgery. She didn't approve of either but did write me a script for Belviq. As of today's date I have lost 19.4 pounds since that visit. But I did start my weight lose journey as well. On Sept. 3rd I went to the seminar at the hospital I work for and where they will also be doing my surgery. It was a very positive seminar and things started rolling right along from there. The following week I was in the office meeting with the shrink and nutritionist.
Sept. 18th I met with the surgeon for the first time. Still very positive. I had a list of things I needed to do, but most were already done, I still needed to go to cardiologist and get blood work done. Blood work came back that my vitamin D levels were low and I needed to start taking calcium. from there I went to the cardiologist who gave me the 2 thumbs up that I was cleared for surgery. Then I called the insurance specialist and she told me I met all requirements and gave me my surgery date of Nov 11th! OMG I got so freaked out. I want this but at the same time I am so scared of everything that comes along with it. So my next visit is Oct 30th it is my pre-admission day and Iwill need to be there from 7:30am till 3pm. I have to take a day off with no pay... then I guess they will tell me if I need to do the liquid diet or not. So today I am 225.4 and feeling pretty good about that. scared about hair loss, scared about complications, scared of how life will change, but also excited to start this weight loss journey!