tnsweetie

I am waiting on approval and I am feeling so discouraged. The referral was submitted around the 15th of August. The surgeon and nutritionist didn't require a weight loss, but they are not wanting to see a gain. I am recently married and coping with a lot emotionlly. We are older and working through baggage, I guess. I am coming off a lot of prescription medications to prepare for surgery. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and the pain has been almost unbearable. I am hoping that losing 130# will take the stress off my joints and help me function better. My life has changed drastically since February. I am not sleeping and not saying on my diet as I should. Food has been my crutch for 51 years. I am afraid of not being approved for RNY, but I am even more afraid of failing after the surgery. I read all of your stories and wish I could be as strong as you all are... has anyone else ever struggled with these feelings of discouragement, fear and shame?