IT'S OBVIOUS, YOU ARE NOT READY!!!! Do yourself a favor and give yourself some more time to think about this. I thought about it for 2 years. In that time I did my research, and asked a lot of questions. You will know when the time is right. You will wake up one morning, and you will be tired of the pain. Yes the pain that all that extra weight your carrying around causes, you will be tired of the heartbreak from not being to do the things that a average weight person can do. You will get up one morning look in the mirror and say, "I am worth it, I want to live a long life, not a short one, cause lets face it Morbidly obese people don't live that long. Good Luck on your Journey, I will say a special prayer for you!