I struggle every day. It's been almost a year. And yes I'm pregnant again. But I still mourn the loss of the wee one. I cried on my due date. And I'm sure I will cry when I come to the anniversary of the day the bleeding starting and the day I had to have the surgery. It's ok to mourn. Some people will say there is no reason to mourn a child that you never held in your arms. But I disagree. You held that baby with your heart. Your soul and your body. I don't know if you are religious. But that baby was born into heaven. And it may have been an early loss but it was a loss just the same. And you are a mommy to an angel. When people ask me how many children I have. I tell them. I have 3. One on the way and 2 in heaven. I miscarried my 5 year olds twin and the wee one last year. People look at me strange but someone who hasn't experienced a loss doesn't understand the logic. Baby dust honey. It will happen.