Hey Stephanie! You're definitely not crazy - I'm there with you. I was just banded Wednesday - I got those same fears when I found out it was really going to happen. I have been heavy my entire life - have never really seen myself thin. However, I know there's a whole side of life that I am missing out on because of my current weight. The fact that you've come to this decision and have gotten this far in the process says that, you, too, know it's the best thing for you. It's scary, yes, but so is the prospect of missing out on a full, exciting life. You're young - don't waste another minute - go into that surgery knowing it's the best thing you could ever possibly do for your future - know that you are going to face difficulties, but they are going to be fewer and far between than if you did not have surgery. I would have given anything if this surgery were available to me when I was your age. I am thrilled that I decided on this and went through with it before the age of 40 (I'm 39 - yikes!) because I know I'll have a much better shot at a full life free from all the horrible complications I was surely going to face. You don't get a second chance at life. Use a journal - pump out those thoughts and fears. See your therapist. Talk to your best friend. Get on this website and talk about everything you're going through. Do whatever it takes. But live life - don't hide behind it. We're here once. Take care.