nickiec

Hello all, I just had a revision done on Monday Jan 9th from a sleeve to a bypass. I am on a full liquid diet for the next 7 to 14 days. I am a little concerned about not having any feeling of hunger or fullness when eating or drinking. occasionally I can hear and feel the liquid drip down into my new pouch. Anyone else have the same problem? Nickie

I am fairly new to the world of Bariatric Surgery, and just recently decided to get the gastric sleeve. I have been morbidly obese since I was a young teenage girl. Now at 39, I have finally decided to do for me after what feels like a lifetime of doing for everyone else. I am currently at 474 lbs, down from 515 lbs in November of 2013, yet that isn't my highest weight. Two years ago I was weighing in at 530 lbs. I had a lot of Water retention then that has thankfully dissipated. My boyfriend (who is a very loving man) is a decently known musician who promotes love of bbw's and ssbbw's in his music and videos. During our relationship of 6 years he has only known me as a very big woman, but I also went from working full time at a career to being so ill I couldn't work and had to start many different medications as well as using medical equipment while sleeping. Big women are what he likes, what he is attracted to, and now I am taking that away. He has let me know he doesn't want to talk to me about my change of life with him, and that he doesn't approve. At the same time he has said that I shouldn't worry about his feelings on the matter, and do what I want. I think he feels I will give this up, but I won't. I want this so badly that a surgery date can't be set soon enough for my liking. I don't know what to do. I love him deeply! He and his son are my family. His son is all for this if it makes me happy and more healthy. I cry every time I want to share the new joys I am finding and my excitement because I know my boyfriend will be cold and callus in his response if I get one at all. Any suggestions? I do have other emotional support, but he is a big part of my world.

You probably do know him, or of him. I have been in most of his music videos like " I need a bbw " and " I wanna get squashed" and I had my own website for a while, but those things just aren't what I want. I hope his love goes beyond the curves. I want to grow old and watch his son grow up and have babies I can spoil. I cut myself off from the friends I had in those groups, choosing to do this was hard, I didn't want to hear the nay Sayers.