Noelle610

Thank you for all of the support/tough love. Being a food addict is what got me to this point to begin with. I want to be here for my kids graduation and after 3 years of pros/cons debates, going to seminars, going to therapy sessions, having friends who have gone through it, I finally made my mind up to go ahead with it. I'm not looking for anyone to tell me to go against what my surgeon told me to do. That is the last thing I would ever do. I was just nervous and scared that I had really done something wrong to really hurt myself. Now I know to take it slow again, get back on track, and let this phase take it's course. I know I can do this, it's just that when you are addicted to something, stopping cold turkey isn't the easiest way to deal with the addiction. I think I may need to go back to my therapist for some professional help on this.

I had my sleeve done on 7/31/14 and the first few days of being home after the surgery and smelling the food that my husband started making the kids for dinner at night, really made me depressed thatI couldn't share it with them. I got to the point that I was actually letting my son's goldfish crackers melt in my mouth so that I had something other than Jello, gatorade, Water, and assorted juices. I then moved on to having Peanut Butter filled pretzles melt in my mouth just so I could get Protein and start to feel some energy. Since then I have sort of moved onto Phase 2 foods and am thinking that I might have messed up. I don't feel any discomfort, just in the beginning when I swallow....it almost feels like gas pains. I know that I was told to be on Clear liquids for 2 weeks, but now that I had a taste of mashed potatoes, I don't want to go back. Did I completely mess everything up? I am my own worst enemy.