I will be changing for the better. Because who I am now is not who I want to be. And if i dont change right now, i will never be the person i see myself as. I want to be a happy teenage girl. That wont happen until I get this surgery. I am so over weight its depressing. im 16, im young, I want to be spending my teenage years having fun, getting out, and meeting new people. But as of right now im not doing that. i hide in my room, but sometimes i do go out with my friend but i want to do more memorable things with my life before i grow up. I don’t know if its because im not a confident person or because im so insecure about the way I look. I come off as a confident but I hide a lot of my feelings. Even to the closest people in my life. I like being a low key person. I don’t like showing people who I really am because im not even comfortable in my own skin. I love clothes, jewelry, and makeup and everything girls love. But its hard shopping when you are a plus size. You only can shop in a store with plus sizes and only shop in that section, and It sucks. I want to be able to shop everywhere and anywhere with not having to worry if they go up to my size.
I hope to be getting this surgery in November. It will help me and give me confidence and help me to be that person i want to be instead of hiding who i really am. i really want to post my journey with this so i can look back on how much i have changed,
