Hi! My consultation is Thursday and I am so back and forth with this that emotionally it feels easier to just give up. The hard thing for me is not having insurance and being selfpay. It's and extra $500 a month to come up with. Since we own our own buisness I am just going to start working shifts to make up for the extra money but I just have this HUGE feeling of guilt. Like I am being selfish w/Xmas coming, etc... and just selfish period. But I also know that not only will this make me happier....it will make everyone around me happier b/c I can start being me again. It's not like I'm taking money from the kids well being b/c I'm working extra but it just makes me feel bad. They are my heart :cool:
