beautifultina

alatina what part of alabama are you in? i used to live in Ft. Mc Clellan near Anniston.

My whole life i have recieved back handed compliments about my looks and weight. The one i hear the most is you have such a pretty face. I was shopping in a local grocery store a few years ago when an older woman came up to me and loudly procailmed " you would be so beautiful if you would just lose some weight." Not to be left in the cold alone I retorted "thank you and you would be seen as kind if you were to keep your lips together." my mother wanted me to try to be a model when i was younger in hopes that it would inspire me to lose weight...well I met a few people who told me if i wanted to be a plus size model i would have to lose weight...HELLO....I only weighed 185 at the time...thanks a lot I have noticed that since i have been running around town getting my pre op requirements met that there have been several well meaning health care workers who have said "nice" things to me.. the girl who drew my blood said "wow that is great. I bet you will be happy to not be so fat" LOL then the lady who did my EKG said "you will be so much healthier with this surgery. make sure you don't mes it up by eating lots of chips and cookies." what? did you see the extra large bag of doritos and the chips ahoy sticking out of my purse? damn, i meant to hide them better..omg lady you dont know me or what made me overweight in the first place.. the final straw was the X ray tech who said " well at least after your surgery you will be able to fit into better clothes." I am sorry i didnt realize that my wearing YOUR exam gown qualified me for a belittleing by the fashion police.

hummm...i tried calling but all i got were options that left me with a ringing line for three minutes striaght..talk about a hard office to get to talk to some one....jeeezz. I hope that some one can hear it here.lol i will try again in a few minutes to see if they are less busy.. ha ha ha ha i called back and they closed the office early...what a shock anything to get to go home early. I want my next nursing job to be in a bariatric office..they never answer the phones..ha ha

Ok Mandy..I have been on the liquid protein pre op diet for almost three weeks now. I have cheated and totally regretted it. My stomach would feel soo engourged and after being on the liquid diet for as long as I have been I feel that I ruined my previous work. I was 335 pounds three years ago when I was diagnosed with PCOS. I had gained 80 pounds in a year with no change in my diet. My hair was thinning and my skin was getting darker and my menses were totally out of control. I actually had a period that lasted for TEN (yes you read that right 10) weeks. Talk about feeling like crap during your one week periods try ten weeks straight. I was starting to think that I was going to menstrate myself to death. Then I got scared and started walking 30 min EVERY day!! I lost 35 pounds in 4 months and my stomach muscles started taking on a shape other than SAG. my periods have since been pretty much normal again. but now I need to get the rest of it off. I have been flip floping ack and forth from 310 to 300 since april. I started my liquid protein diet july 5. I love my shakes they are sooo awesome. I use Pro Rated Alpine Vanilla. I got it at Costco for $20 for a 6 # tub. I mixed it with 2% milk at first and I loved it. then I thought to incorporate more protein in it (the powder had 22 grams per scoop) I started using 8th Contintnet Light Soy milkVanilla flavor..its adds 7 more grams of protien to my shakes. they taste like a treat. I have them for my three meals and drink drink drink drink all day long of my FLAVOR SPLASH AQUAFINA water..sooo freaking good tasting I had to call them to make sure there really was no cal no carb no sugar. They said no none. I also enjoy the crystal light water pack on the go mixes. they taste good too. then I have sugar free fat free jello. it satisfies my urge to chew. I live in northern nevada where we have had over a week straight of temps over 100 and there had been a run on the sugar free popcicles here too. I know that there are more options out there that i am not aware of but, I love ones i have been told of and discovered. Keep your chin up and know that the more you lose before surgery the less you have to loose after. I think of it as a farewell to dieting forever..This sugery is teaching me to eat right for the rest of my life and there will be nore more diets. I found a quote that inspires me and i will share it with you.. "It's never too late to be what you might have been." I have small quotes like that all over my house to help me keep my chin up. I put my fat picture on my freezer door as to see it everytime i open the doors to my fridge. I dont like the person i see in it and think everytime i choose not to open that door and binge of how much sooner i will be saying good riddance to the old unhealthy me and hello to the new me. Well I am off to my pre op appt for blood work etc. talk to you soon and i hope that something i shared with you will help. if notheing more than to diatract you from your humger, Best of luck to you

well, I too am more of a lover than a fighter, especially when consuming alcohol. One night at a local watering hole, I was with several friends and we were all shooting pool. We were also ALL drinking... well as you can imagine a few men were watching this roudy bunch of women drinking. One man came up to me and challenged me to a game of pool. I asked him what I would get if I won. He said he wasn't sure. HE said he wanted to see my breasts if he won( HEY! who wouldn't want to see a nice pair of Natural DD's~~as they are such a rare occurance in nature--LOL LOL). I said ok "Tit for Tat" and pointed at his crotch..If I win I want to see TAT...both sets of friends with us started howling and roaring in laughter. I continued drinking through out the match and low and behold I actually Won. The guy became nervous and said that it was never a real bet. All our friends said he did infact bet. Well as not to crush the poor man's ego I challenged him yet again to of all things..an ARM WRESTLING match. As it turns out I am freakishly stong when intoxicated. Yes. I did win. So at the urging of all of our friends and by this time, my mother( how she got there I still don't know) the guy reluctantly went out back with me to show me the goods. To say the least I was not impressed. Let's just say that Alcohol is not kind to those who are not that well endowed in the first place. Flacid would have been an improvement for this fellow. I walked back in to a room of people eagerly awaiting my response. I said "Wow I finally got to see the male hummingbird's penis upclose." He was VERY angry and said he would show me again when he was sober so I could see the full extent of his man hood. I told him not to bother, that if I wanted to see another thumb I had two of my own. He got pissed and stormed out of the bar. He has never been back there. Not exactly the bar fight you were talking about , yet an interesting bar story none the less.

WOW! Its more common than I first thought. I have not even told my boss that I am going to have surgery. I know his condesending ass would find ANY reason to fire me so that I would lose my insurance and thus lose my sugery. How do I plan to have the surgery? Well, I asked for the day of and the day after off. I will call out sick for the next how-many-ever days I need and will take a doctor's note in and get paid from my sick pay instead of having to use up my vacation. The note just has to say that I was out for medical reasons. It doesn't have to say that I had surgery or even what kind of surgery. (neiner neiner neiner jerk boy boss man) Sneaky? maybe. but, I have seen how my boss has treated other people when they are not feeling well or going through something in thier private life..he DUMPS all over them and then talks about them behind thier backs!! how do I know this? I sit across from him and I hear EVERY word that he mutters..on the phone and in person...So there is no way I am going to let the bird out of the cage...only to be devoured by the EVIL CAT BASTARD that is my boss. As for my best friend....well we have been best friends for over 10 years...she doesnt know. and I am not going to tell her. The very few people who do know, know not to tell her. My mom has been kinda wishy washy about it all but then again I havent told her of my surgery date yet (july 26). I will let her know when it it all over and done with. THen she will have nothing to worry about. best of luck to you all. I feel as if I have gained so many new friends here that even if I lose a few that I have had a while, then so be it...I come out better for it in the end. Thank you ALL for shareing yourselves with me.

Kathy...thank you for your wonderful analogy of my leaving behind the 300's. It truely didn't cross my mind!! and KUDOS to you GIRL!!! You crossed over into the 100's!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS AWESOME!!!!:banana :banana :banana :banana :banana :banana Congrats to everyone for staying on the losing side. I weighted this morning and it was 293.8 not sure I lost much but it was a loss. Talk to you all later. Go have a good summer!!! Tina P.S. Incase you can't already tell I LOVE THE DANCING BANANAS!!

ok started off last week (sunday) at 308. Today I got on the scale and it read as 293.6 so 14 pounds GONE! I didnt start the LPD(liquid Protein Diet) until Tuesday so, I am not sure where to start measuring my weigth loss from. I will just start weighing in here on mondays. Best of luck to you all and congrats on alll the weight you all have lost so far. Tina

I was thinking about gum, but I was told it would put too much gas in your stomach (like using a straw). I wasnt sure if it was an option thank you for your help. hope you all have a great night. I gave the skittles away!

I am on this liquid protein diet. I am stareing at a candy dish full of SKITTLES. they are calling my name. I want to CHEW something. I am going to stay away from the candy dish but any other suggestions?

I work in a grocery store doing bookkeeping and cashiering part time, so I get to see ALL the magazines with the too skinny celebs all over them. I am so tired of looking at them all. I havent seen ayone mention STAR JONES here. There is no way that her bigolbutt (probably the same size as mine) got to looking as good as she did without MEDICAL intervention!!! I want her to sit down with Barbara WAWA(walters) and fess up!

I would think that going back to a liquid diet would help you to regain control of your eating. Would going back to having liquid protein shakes for your meals help you get a grip on things? even if it were only for a few days until you could feel like you have a sense of control over food again. I have been on the liquid protein shakes now for 6 days and have already lost 14 pounds. I plan on keeping the powder around the house and office for those days when I feel out of control. I am fortunate that my insurance is paying for my procedure, but there are women in my support group who have mortguaged thier homes to have this surgery. I just can't imagine putting that much money into it and then sabatoging myself. I can't imagine how I would feel if I found out that I stretched out my pouch. I think the risk of that happeing would keep me from overeating. My plan is to treat my new stomach as if it were a brand new PORCHE car that I just bought. Maintain it and think about it, and all the time and effort I invested into getting it.I want to keep imagiang what it will be like to show off my new porche. The idea of revealing the me that I have hidden away under all my weight is so worthy of having control enought to push that plate away. I plan on thinking of bingeing or overeating as getting into a wreck in my new car. odd way of thinking? maybe so? but I want to do what ever it takes. The other day I was craving the candy dish of skittles on my coffee table. I walked out side and gave them to a little boy playing in a nearby yard. hence my temptation is gone.

LOL you are right..June was the last posting but the last person who had posted joined in april so that is where i was mistakenly looking at..LOL hey what can I say I am a natural blonde...

I want to wish my fellow July banders the best of luck in your procedures. I am so excited to be having this done and to have so many new friends to get to share it with! Thank you all for being here and shareing your experiences here for all to see. I have learned so much! Barb...my heart goes out to you for having to wait until next month.

OMG!! WOW!! To be that close to your goal...How amazing for you!!! I am 15 days away from having my surgery and it is very cool to see that people are having such great sucess with thier bands. Please take this as a compliment... YOU ROCK!!!

LOL Vinesqueen..I use cheese as my food lube. I love pepper jack cheese. YUM! YUM! As I have gotten older I will accept a pre-made hamburger from Wendy's or somewhere with the condiments already on it. I usually won't wipe it off unless there is a large amount of SLUDGE dripping off it. But, I will ALWAYS pick off the onions and pickles. There is something about vinegar that I just can't handle. I love cucumbers but hate pickles...go figure.?. I like steak sauce and salad dressings. I, too am one to dip my food in Ranch dips. Its amazing how picky I am and yet I am still so overweight.

I am useing a protein powder called Pro Rated i have the alpine vanilla flavor. It is sweetened with splenda. It has 4 carbs per serving. It has 22 gm of protein per serving. It tastes good by itself. I am told that you can add stuff to it to give it more flavor like orange fat free jello powder to make it taste like a orange dreamcicle. I have yet to try that so I will let you know how it goes. I got the powder at Costco. It was located near the pharmacy. It was only $20 for a huge 6 pound tub of it. The chocolate one i am trying is called Advant Edge..it is ok... very syrup-ie sweet tasting. it only has 13 gm of protein and has 22 gm of sugar!!OUCH I perfer the pro Rated one. They offer a chocolate one too but I have only purchased the vanilla to date. I think i can chew gum to satisfy my need to chew. Going to try and get a hold of a friend who had it done to see what she was told. Best of luck and dont feel shy..this is my first day on here and I feel like I am talking up a storm. I wish that people would actually go to the chat room to talk too. Every time I have gone in there I am the only one there~~~ no fun talking to yourself.

ok the last post on this was from april. So are the dates still Sept 9,10, and 11? what hotel are you all planning to call to try and get a group rate at? can you post the name and phone number of the hotel? I am going to see if I can swing having that weekend off ( I am also a weekend bookkeeper and the books can't not be done for three days~have to make sure that my back up can cover for me). I want to try and fly in. I will be coming from Reno, NV. Its a 45 min plane ride as compared to an 8 hour car ride. I am going to be banded on July 26, so I will try and pack up some of my clothes that will be too big for me by then to take with me in a second suitcase. If I can talk my boyfriend Harry( he is also my support person)into going too I am sure I can use one of his suitcases too to bring more clothes. YIPPEE!! If Harry can't make it I, too will be looking for a roommate. :eek WARNING: I do snore!

ok not yet baqnded so i am not sure what in the world a PB is? My medical guess would be a blockage to me. can anyone help me out on this?

I absolutely LOVE my cable connection. I have only had the cable go out when the weather was so bad that the power went out too.The winds here blow like the dickens. They can get over 100 mph at times. AHH the joy of living at the foot of a tall mountain range. we had over 6 feet of snow at one time this last winter and our cable was working when our phone lines went down.( figure that one out.) I used to have dial up (back in the dark ages) then upgraded to cable. I have 3 Mg speed and I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT! I wouldnt go back to dial up even if you shoved a stick in my eye.:dead

well Deejay. dont digress I am on a LIQUID protein diet until my surgery on July 26th. :cry I am 4 days into it and I am so wanting to CHEW something. I would love to bite into anything at this point. Egg,sausage,cheese. I am going to see if i can drink some broth to give myself a change. I am drinking vanilla and chocolate protein shakes now.:sick Please dont be discouraged. You can do it and you will do it. I keep telling myself that if I dont eat this or that (what ever it is I am craveing) that I will be that much closer to my goal.:sleep I have even resorted to going to bed earlier as i can't eat in my sleep. I have tried distracting myself with chores that need to be done and going outside. My apt has never been cleaner and I am getting a nice tan from hanging out in the swimming pool. We are all in this together so dont worry about sounding whiney. We will all have our moments.:banana Keep your chin up.

when I was younger I refused to eat ANYTHING that had to do with Tomatoes so no spaghetti pizza or ketchup for me. no Taco sauce either. I am still not a big comdement fan. I dont like ketchup mayo mustard pickles vinegar onions = yuck factor. When my family would go out to eat we would have to wait(usually 10 min) for Mc Donald's to cook me a plain hamburger with cheese. That used to annoy the crap out of my dad. The wiping it off stunt didnt work with me. I knew!! When my family would have tacos my mother would make me bologna sandwiches folded into triangles with butter on the bread instead of mayo. My mother was also famous for feeding us fried spam with brown sugar. For breakfast we would often have egg sandwiches~scrambled egg with slice of cheese with a slice of fried bologna between two pieces of toasted white bread. Thinking of these makes me want to go have one now..dang this liquid diet!! I didnt even try to eat pizza until i was 7 years old. then they couldnt give it to me fast enough~i still love pizza. a deep dish crust with extra sauce and pepperoni and cheese.YUM YUM I didnt even eat ketchup until I was 18 years old. I now eat it a little bit but, only in small amounts. However I am a sucker for chips and salsa or chips and guacamole!! I am a sucker for Wendy's fries being dipped into a frosty. DELISCH!! I agree that Fritos in buttermilk is WAY SICK! I would rather be force fed rolly polies~at least that way i could get my protein in!:laugh

ha ha you are all so funny! My last name is Hailer. It is German. I traced its meaning back as far a I could. Going backwards meaning doctor, to heal,and before that to castrate. HA HA the funny part is I just stopped working in a pediatriac office where I would assist physicans with circumcisons. Try getting a date when your last name means "to castrate"!

i would love to post a pic here but i dont know how to attach it. any hints or suggestions? thanks BTW you all look so great!!! keep up the good work Tina

wow You all look so happy! Thank you for shareing yourself with all of us. I want to know how to put a pic in here. Would some one please tell me how to . Its' only fair that you get to see me too. Tina