tomi89

My entire life I have struggled with my weight. I had the appetite of a grown man and as I progressed through childhood into adolescence my appetite began to show in the form of chubbiness and eventually obesity. Between ages 14 and 16 I managed to get my weight down but only by drastically cutting my calories and exercising daily and taking up Tae Kwon Do. I got smaller but was miserably hungry and tired albeit I toned up nicely.
It wasn't until later I realized that I eat to self-soothe. My family are big southern eaters so food was always available yet I was teased, chastised, admonished, bullied, abused because of my weight.
After years of "dieting" on and off, combined with having two children, and self-soothing with food, I found weight loss impossible because these things wrecked my metabolism. I also had been diagnosed with severe clinical depression and anxiety... horrible, horrible anxiety and these were obviously the result of the zero self-esteem and chemical imbalance I have.
What eventually led me to the surgery decision was my therapist. I never really thought it would be for me and I felt shameful about having to go through such a drastic measure just to lose weight. My therapist helped me see a different angle and the rest is history! This is one if the best decisions I have ever made. It has forced me to change habits, set realistic healthy goals, and I no longer obsess over diabetes which runs in my family. I have been forced to take care of myself and that is something I never did, with the exception of my pregnancies. So, with this change and the support of my therapist, family, and physicians I am on the road to wellness. Plus, I am soooo looking forward to dressing to kill and feeling sexy again! LOL