TheNewJen14

I'm in the very beginning stages. I just got all my blood work, chest x-ray, psychological evaluation, and ultrasound. The nutritionist is next week and the surgeon is 8/18.

I have been in the post-surgery room and I have been reading so many posts about complications, sickness, ER visits, narrowing 'pipes'... It really is scaring me. I am in my 2nd month of my 6 month prep period and one day I am 1,000% sure it's the best decision and the next day I change my mind. I am 5' 3" and 331. It's surgery or death for me. But I am still scared. Perhaps it's because I decided to go with the RNY over the sleeve because if the longer term results. RNY seems to have many more complications. Is there anyone out there with a positive bypass?

I know that surgery is not the easy answer. And I know I will work harder than I ever have and will have the best outcome. However, today I am feeling a little negative. I sat talking to my boss and my co-worker (who, put together, weight as much as me). Both are very fit and very active. They track every calorie and work out frequently. Well, as they sat there talking about their eating habits and exercise habits, I immediately felt fatter than I ever have in my life. I just couldn't shrink far enough into my chair. I felt so resentful to them for making it look 'so easy'. I also felt so much envy that they could do it and I never could. And, truth be told, it really is not that difficult. You eat less than your body burns and you lose weight. I guess it's much easier in theory than it is in practice. As I continue down my path, I am grateful that I finally found a tool that could help me get my life back. But with so many emotions flying around (including grief for the life lost already and excitement/fear for the life that lies ahead), I find that everything is a little more challenging right now. I know I'll look back in year, a completely changed person, and feel so proud that I overcame all this.

Thank you, Ms. Laydee. I have a list of things that I am looking forward to and reading that again helped today. They say that nothing worth having is easy. So maybe all this hard work will all be worth it.

Hi Salem! I feel like part of what we are going through is like mourning a friend. I know for myself, I have turned to food for so many years to comfort myself and pick myself back up. Now I will have to find something else. Today I continued to work on my list of reasons to do the surgery. Tying my shoes without holding my breath of having to brace against something. Picking something up off the floor with my hand, not the very tips of my fingers. I have a lot of there that I read today and it somehow helped me remember that this is all for the good and in a year, we will be like the others... eating for nutrition, not for comfort, exercising, and finally LIVING. Because at 335 pounds, I am merely existing. What you are going through is completely understandable. I read so many posts about people struggling through the pre-op diet. Rapid weight loss leads to some hormone changes that can affect mood. So, know that what is happening now is temporary. Picture yourself where you want to be a year from now. You can private message me or email me anytime you feel ready to cancel. You have already been through so much by preparing for the surgery. You can do this!

Cleveland here! I am hoping to have surgery in January or February, depending on the length of the approval process. I am going through the Cleveland Clinic.

Just read that chronic nausea syndrome can happen after surgery. Anyone know the prevalence? I read it happens to 'many' patients but wasn't sure really how 'many'?

I'm so sorry to hear that. Does it eventually go away?

Thank you Laurie! I am so glad that everything was smooth for you.

Are you pre or post surgery Boppin'?

Nurses deserve every penny they get! What kind of post op issues did you have?

THANK YOU! Thank you everyone! Sometimes you just need to hear something positive! <3

Congrats! Did you have surgery at the main Cleveland Clinic campus?

OMG Jen! I am in Parma also!! I had six months and will finish that up this month on the 15th with my nutritionist. But I am starting nursing school the end of this month and I can't take time off so I am going to schedule it when I am on winter break! I am having a hard time...with no one to talk to about what I am going through! My friends are only half supportive! Husband is supportive completely but still has fears about me leaving him afterwards! I would love to chat and since we are so close maybe we could walk and workout together! Being so close in our journey it would be wonderful to have someone to talk to!!! That is so crazy that you are in Parma too!! I'm so sorry you're having a hard time with people not being supportive. Luckily I have my husband and my mom who have been very supportive. My boss and my coworker have also been very supportive so I feel very lucky. I would love to get together and talk. Even though I have support it would be nice to actually go through the process with someone.I am currently at 330. But they want me to lose 20 pounds before surgery. Right now I am in a period where I seem to be eating more instead of losing because I keep thinking about everything I can't eat after surgery. My therapist suggested that I read a book on binge eating so I started that book and hope it helps. I have been traveling a lot for work right now. This week I am in Milford Connecticut. The travel is kind of hard for me. And I think even more so after surgery because of the limitations on what I will be able to eat.What is your schedule like? Are you currently working?

Hi!! I live in the Parma area and I work in Bedford. Going to the Clinic has been a pain because of the drive and the parking but I keep pushing myself. Nothing worth having is easy, right? I have 6 months preop so I will finish up in December. Approval is right after, takes about a month. Then surgery probably in January or February. Where are you from?

I'm in Cleveland. I will have my surgery in February. I am going through the Cleveland Clinic. Dr. Brethauer is my surgeon. I am not sure which procedure yet. I want the sleeve but I think with my crazy sweet tooth that the RNY would be more successful.

Wonderful! What surgery? How are you feeling?