One thing I forgot to add I almost didnt make it out of the hospital alive. They over medicated me, found me non- responsive, didn't hook me back up to the monitors to monitor me and had to call a code to get me to come out off it.
Hang in there. I had surgery 6/23 and became seriously depressed. It took awhile (6weeks) to start to feel like my old self. I agree with you about making 100% sure surgery is right for you. Keep your head up and I hope you get better.