ohiogirl63

Lexington

I'm hoping to do that more completely very soon. I am thinking about going to the support meeting. I think it is next Tuesday. I had been in touch with my surgeon's office. I had been thinking about making an appointment to get myself pointed in the right direction. I have to go out of state to take care of family business. But I was thinking really seriously about seeing if I could get an appointment for before I leave on my trip. I thought it might be helpful because I am going to be with my mom for an extended period of time more. She is really bad for me. I react to her and I shouldn't. She is diabetic. Should not eat sweets, right? But she eats them all the time. Then she like to talk to me about what I eat. If I eat properly then she keeps asking if I would like some kind of junk food. If I eat sweets then she tells me how bad I am. If I don't eat it she tells me that I'm making her look bad and that I'm being judgmental of her. I'm not. I would just like to not eat the sugar that makes me feel terrible and make my heart race. Makes it so I can't breath. So I thought if I started over right before this trip maybe it would help me to stay with the right thing while I'm away from home. I'm trying to get her to stay here for the month of August so that I can get in my pool and walk around every day. For the last month I've been getting in my pool and walking for an hour or more. But at least an hour. Thank you for your points. I will try very hard to be positive. When I knew I was having this done, I was positive. I knew I would be able to do it. I would be successful. Now I can't even figure out where to go. I want to lose 100 more pounds. That's 10 more pounds than my original goal. My problem is I'm afraid the doctor won't think I'm worth the time and effort. It didn't seem like after a while that I was to him. Sorry! Thanks for the information. For the encouragement and the tips. I will strive for positive today.

I was going to a counselor for a while but we can't afford it right now. I think I know why more than not. I let people turn on a switch in me that said I was doing something wrong by losing the weight. How dumb is that. Now all I can see is how much of a failure I am. I was thinking about doing the 5 day pouch test. Then going back to eating mostly Protein shakes to get a start. I have some problems with my memory and my mind. Not sure if it is just the anxiety disorder I have. But looking at the menu or recommendations for eating this far from surgery just jangles up my brain. I was so successful to begin with. Now I just feel like I'm flapping in the wind. I have contacted my doctor's office. They have said that they will let me have some sort of office visit. But I have to call them to find out how much it will cost. I've decided to start going to all the support meetings they have. Hoping that will help me get my head back into it. It was so easy for me to give up everything. I don't really care now about most of it but I eat it anyway. How dumb is that? Menu samples, ideas. Going to have to start somewhere really soon. Thank you for contacting me.

I am very interested in support. I had my surgery on March 10, 2009. I lost 134 pounds. Then something snapped in me. Now I have gained back almost 60 pounds. I can't figure out how to get started again. I look at the information but it seems to be Greek. I think I would need too much babying. BUT would LOVE help, support, I'm not sure exactly what it is I need. There are mental issues involved. I don't know where to begin. I think my pouch must be broken. Thank you for at least listening.