advocating09

I am 33 and weigh 320 pounds. I have two boys 10 months and 3 years. I also have been teaching for 12 years. My weight has held me back all of my life, but since the birth of my boys I have put on an additional 75 pounds. I'm so worried about health issues and not being around for them. All that being said, I am also a worrier. I am scheduled to have surgery on July 31st with Dr.Alvarez. I am going alone. Freaking out a little. What if something goes wrong? I am just so worried about this. My other fear is flying home by myself. Am I going to be up to it? I had two very rough pregnancies (mainly due to my weight). I'm just scared that something bad will happen and it's driving me crazy!