I'm with you sunshine , and I think this is no kids contest to see who has the biggest candy bag, maybe other people do have a hidden agenda or should I say JOB.
In any case sunshine you have been of great support for me and for that I thank you and many others too, I made up my mind ,I'm not dumb so I know that this surgery is a really hard choice to make that is why I came to this forum for support, information and encouragement and for that I thank all of you that ENCOURAGE ME TO GIVE MY SELF A SECOND CHANCE IN LIFE.