CandySmooch

I love this pic - here is what my dog looked like when he was a puppy sometime

something to break up the monotony - this is how I feel after work each night - I've been a Midnight Dispatcher going on 8 years now - started when I was 17. midnightdispatcher.bmp

and this is my best friend and I - I love this picture - it is my favorite!!! Taken in Summer of 2001

whoops sorry - found another one - this is with my dear dear friend who is sooo funny! it was his birthday and he was feeling pretty good - taken in Summer 2001 - notice me hiding behind him?

And this is my baby sitting on the lot the day I bought her. My 2002 35th Anniversary Edition Camaro.........isn't she purrrrdy??? Sorry I don't have kids, so my car pic will have to do

And one last one - taken in 2000 in my EMT uniform - this was when I started gaining weight after my father tragically passed away - I'd be happy at this weight again too.

Ironically - this is my thinnest - picture was taken May 16, 1999 - Project Graduation - taken right after high school graduation at our ALL NIGHT lock - in party.

me - taken after a long night of working in 911 Dispatch - taken sometime in 2002

Another pic at my thinnest - taken APRIL 1999 - 18 years old

Mmmmm I'd say this pic was at my thinnest - taken the summer of my first fire school - drinkin with the buds after a long hard day - I wasn't even legal to drink - taken Summer of 1999 - the summer I also graduated high school. This is where I'd be happy to be at again and is my first goal - I am currently 50lbs away from this pic. I was also 18 here.

my employee pic for the fire dept. taken in FEBRUARY 2004. Funny thing I remember about this picture is they made us take a side shot like a mug shot but even told us the soul purpose of the side pics were for body identification if we ended up in the morgue.......nice huh? Forgive the flat hair - they gave us NO NOTICE! OH DEAR GOD! CAN SOMEONE MAKE IT SMALLER? At least my makeup looks good this close!

here is the best driver's license pic I've ever had - taken sometime in 2004

HAHA - here's a good one - taken in 2000 sometime - sooooo 5-6 years ago now. What am I trying to do in this pic? Nice cleavage huh? This was when I was still relativiely small - I'd say 230ish - would love to be back down to this size although notice I am covering up with the chair? Believe I took this pic for an ex-boyfriend. Nice bleach job with the dark roots.......yea class act!

Also taken from the same photo session MAY 2004 - 1 year before lapband surgery - also my avatar and my favorite pic since it shows my tattoo

Another One From The Photo Session Of May 2004 - Just Messing Around With My Best Friend Taking Photos Of Me.

My 23rd Birthday - JANUARY 2004 with my older sister.

May 2004 ************

November 2003 - a month after Jon and I have been together.

too cute!************

Well the best gift I ever received was from my best friend's father who is a nurse. I've always looked up to him and he's been like a second father to me. A few years ago he gave me a hand made quilt and all the pieces on it were different colorful scraps that reminded him of me and his son (my best friend). Some with music notes, hot air balloons, halloween, summer scenes, hot chili peppers. I knew he was making it for me, I just didn't know what it was going to be - but he had asked me to bring him a bed sheet of mine to sew onto the back - so I brought the very first bed sheet I ever bought on my own in my new place to help commemorate the quilt. It's really wonderful and I sleep with it every night on my bed. It is the best gift I have ever received hands down. Its something so unique to myself and everytime I look at it, it invokes strong nostalgia and brings me comfort. I hope to have it for a very very long time - I hope to have it with me in my old age and pass it on down to my future children someday.

awwwww peace be with you as well as loving thoughts & prayers

i take the new liquid Tylenol PM in the Very Vanilla flavor - I hate all liquid cough syrups but this one is the most tolerable.

Funny this post should pop back up. The other day my boyfriend and I were driving down the highway when all of a sudden there was this large lady walking on the side of the road and my boyfriend said dammmnnnn double points if you hit that one and we both shared a really good laugh, then he got very sullen and apologized immediately and said he shouldn't say that because if anyone ever said that about me he'd be angry and would kick their ass. I got very solemn then too. It didn't dawn on me to take offense at his first joke until he got solemn and said the second part - then I realized I was about the same size as that unknown lady and probably should have taken offense to what he said the first time - but for some reason I always laugh at a good fat joke. Why? Because I am one? Because I pretend the fat jokes are aimed at all other fat people and except me? I don't know. It just made me think twice. It was wrong regardless. But I do compare myself to other fat girls - I always think am I bigger than her? Do I look like that? Well at least I'm smaller than her.....etc etc.

I feel retarded - what is this DS??

thinking of you!