RSM 79

Thank you and I promise I won't give up I will stick with it and I'm still trying to get the hang off this site so as I explore I'll try and create a new topic thanks again for the encouraging words take care and God bless and by for now, Richard

It's hard for me too go I get depressed and result to enemas at this point I'm wondering if I made a mistake guys don't cry but this one often does at times I hate life and pray it gets better I'm one month out and the only reason I continue is my family if not for them I would just give up I know things would get better we'll I pray they do I love food ,however at this point it hates me sometimes I feel alone in this ,however my wife has always been there for me and some time I feel she would be better off without me I'm ready for God to take me however it's his choice where not sure how long I'm going to last but I will not let my son and wife be without me there the only reason I am fighting the urge to go on so plz help with some support God knows I need it and yes I'm to shy to attend support meetings in person perhaps life might be easier without me at times I feel my family would be better off then I relizecmy son looking at me and my struggles and I want cc him to be a fighter even when things go wrong so I'll do wat I need to be their for him and my wife however I know it won't be easy thanks for reading.