I'm having surgery on November 12th too. My insurance was approved and I am under my weight goal, but I notice the closer I get to surgery the more scared I am getting. Don't get me wrong, I want the surgery, but I'm afraid I won't do it right when I get home. I want to do it perfect, but I am afraid of screwing up. Also, I'm afraid of how my life will change. I don't know how to be thin. I've never been thin, except when I was seven. I do know I've tried everything and I've lost weight several times only to regain it and more. I'm doing this for health reasons I'm in constant physical pain, I am borderline diabetic and just plain sick of being sick because of my weight. Did anyone out there have fear before their surgery? Did your thoughts ever stop going all over the place?