Feist66

Hello everyone, I am almost 2 weeks out of surgery and am pretty upset with myself. I know this surgery is only a tool for weight loss, but I was hoping it would be slightly easier. I always knew my weight problems were due to my psychological addiction to food, but after failed counseling and failed everything else I decided to go through with the sleeve in hopes that it would take away my appetite and decrease my endulgences. I am not saying the surgery wasn't a success I am already off of my blood pressure meds and down 34lbs. I am just consumed with thinking about eating, dreaming of it, depressed because I can't eat it. I am bending rules like making chicken broth with my egg mixed in to allow for more palatable food and I know that is wrong. I have been very successful with weight loss before and I am usually pretty strong when it comes to following rules, but I am just worried that I cannot keep it up for life. Some people say their relationship with food changed after the surgery I don't see that happening for me. I wait the whole day just thinking about that egg, it's pathetic. I have also been very busy, active and have resumed exercising with no relief.

Thank you Amy, yeah it is just a mental battle in my head everyday that I am winning right now. I am just trying to take it day by day. Thank you for your help.