autumnb

Hello! my name is Autumn and im a proud stay at home mommy to two beautiful children age 3 (boy)  and age 1 (girl).  I love to sing and dance and have fun. I love to hunt and fish. My idea of hunting though is sitting in the blind with my husband or dad and watching them shoot the big one. My husband is my support and my rock and I don't know where I would be without him. I have always battled with my weight. I got the short end of the deal on the genetic scale.  Even playing sports and dieting I was never "thin".  My turning point was when a friend of my husband came over and bragged about how much weight he was loosing on his "diet" and then proceeded to tell me its okay that im fat. I then realized that I want to be able to run around and chase my kids as they grow without feeling like I am out of breath and have to stop after 5 minutes.  There is also a lot of family history of diabetes and heart disease and a slew of other things that I know I don't want to have to deal with as I age. I am only 22 and want to live a long fulfilling life with/for my husband and kids. I want to be able to be adventurous and not care what others think but its so hard when you feel eyes on you. We live in a society full of judgmental people and it can really hurt someone's self esteem. I have went from a outgoing, loving life, fearless to try new things to someone who cries every time my husband wants to take me on a date out of fear of peoples judgmental glances. To someone who hibernates away from the world. I am ready for my life back. This time im in control and im taking the horse by the reigns. Aint nothin gonna to slow me down.