Birdie

Hi everyone, I have a problem that is making me miserable and I would love to hear from anyone who is going through what I am or has experienced it! Here's the scoop: I am one week away from my initial consultation, my psych evaluation is complete, insurance is approved, primary doctor has given it a "thumbs up", and I am gaining weight like a crazy lady! Did this happen to any of you??? I don't know if its nerves or what, but I keep gaining more weight. I feel completely out of control and I can't wait to get the band to stop the insanity! Please tell me this is somewhat normal. I am not trying to do the "I won't ever be able to eat this again, so I will shove it all in now" thing, but yikes! Any thoughts? Prayers? Nice words? I could really use a friend:sad_smile::tt1::thumbup: (The smiley faces are fun and made me feel better for a second)

I wish you the best of luck! I am also scared but I figure that I would rather have a planned surgery than have to have emergency surgery from a heart attack, stroke and everything else that comes with the complications of being fat. I have never had surgery before but I am a nurse manager and so I have seen people who are very old, fragile and sick and for the most part, they come out of surgery OK. I have researched this procedure and the pros and cons for over a year now and I think (hope & pray) that we'll be OK. I have started to stray away from reading the negative (complications) threads on this site. I am trying to place it in God's hands. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope to hear from you when your surgery is over and your on your way!

Hi Jenny, I said a prayer for you today and I can't wait to hear how you did! Best of luck to you on your journey!

Hi, I am scheduled to attend my pre surgery consulation on Sept. 5th. I have completed insurance approval, psych evaluation and have gotten my primary doctor approval so I am on my way! The only problem is that I am scared to death to have the surgery! I know that it is a minimal procedure and being a nurse manager I have been in surgery and I have seen several very old, very sick patients go into surgery and come out of it, but I myself have never had surgery and I am scared like crazy! I am also gaining weight and eating junk that I have never ate before! One other thing is although I adore my husband and we have a great relationship, but I am so embarrassed that he will have to come to the consulation with me and have to see my "Holy huge" number on the scale!!! He has never ever said anything about my weight but it is soooo embarrassing to me! If there is anyone out there who feels like I do or has been through some of these feelings before, I would love to hear from you! I was in the process of having the surgery last year with one of my friends, but I chickened out because of my fear. She. of course, had the surgery and is down 85pounds in about 9 months! I am not backing out this time, for sure, but I would love to find some support from this site! Thank you all so much!:thumbup:

Went to see Dr. M today. Told him about my problems with anxiety and he adjusted my meds somewhat. He signed the form to allow for weight loss surgery. Only a couple more days until the consulatation. I wish that Heather was going first so that I would know what to expect. I'm scared and excited....I hope that this works and that I do medically ok. :faint::faint::faint::faint::faint::faint::faint::faint:

Went to see Dr. M today. Told him about my problems with anxiety and he adjusted my meds somewhat. He signed the form to allow for weight loss surgery. Only a couple more days until the consulatation. I wish that Heather was going first so that I would know what to expect. I'm scared and excited....I hope that this works and that I do medically ok. :faint::faint::faint::faint::faint::faint::faint::faint:

:help: Well today is a new day and I feel miserable. My body aches and I am bigger and bigger and bigger. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and downed some cookies and milk. I am truly out of control and I eat like a true addict. I will ask Dr. M if he can refer me to a psychologist to help me deal with my emotional problems with eating so I can start to get a grip on things before surgery. I want to join the Y but I feel like I am always so tired and I don't know how I am going to be able to work out. I have a feeling that this job is not going to be able to let me get healthy. It is kinda hard to work out when I always feel like I could fall asleep! Why can't I motivate myself to move and to eat right? I feel like such a loser. :angry:think Yesterday I hardly ate and the scale keeps moving upwards.....I need to move my bootie or something. I will be sooo embarrassed when I go to the consultation this weekend and C. sees how fat I truly am.....

:help: Well today is a new day and I feel miserable. My body aches and I am bigger and bigger and bigger. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and downed some cookies and milk. I am truly out of control and I eat like a true addict. I will ask Dr. M if he can refer me to a psychologist to help me deal with my emotional problems with eating so I can start to get a grip on things before surgery. I want to join the Y but I feel like I am always so tired and I don't know how I am going to be able to work out. I have a feeling that this job is not going to be able to let me get healthy. It is kinda hard to work out when I always feel like I could fall asleep! Why can't I motivate myself to move and to eat right? I feel like such a loser. :angry:think Yesterday I hardly ate and the scale keeps moving upwards.....I need to move my bootie or something. I will be sooo embarrassed when I go to the consultation this weekend and C. sees how fat I truly am.....

I am so nervous about the decision to have the lap band placed. I know that it is the right thing to do and that I'll feel so much better than I do now but I am so scared about having surgery. I wish I could conquer the fear of going under anesthesia but I have never done it before and I am so afraid that I won't wake up and see my babies! Sometimes I think that being a nurse was definately the wrong decision for me. I know too much and I have seen the "surgeries gone bad" On the flip side of that, I have also seen 30-some year olds have heart attacks and strokes. I also know that I don't want to be unhealthy for myself anymore and for my babies I want to be a good role model for Anna so that she doesn't end up like I am! Where did the 244 pounds come from?? 2 weeks ago I weighed 234 pounds...I'm sooo pissed that I can't be "normal" for even that amount of time. If I do not watch every second of eating....I gain weight at such a rapid pace. I want this to end. I want my body to tell me, loud and clear, HELLO.....STOP EATING!! I want to be able to pull on "anything" and run to the store in confidence that if I run into someone I won't be embarrassed. I want to wear a pair of jeans without them digging into my stomach. I want to wear a bra that doesn't leave huge indentation marks into my stomach and my arms. I want my stomach to stop flopping out over my underwear.:confused: I want to run. I want to not think about food. I want to live a day without worrying about my health, having a heart attack, a stroke, an emboli, etc. It is getting so old! I know that I am going to have to change everything about my lifestyle but I am so willing to do that now and I want my outside to match my inside. 6 more days until my consultation. I hope all goes well and that this process is started and that I can keep my nerves undercontrol......Guess I'll have to wait and see. I can do this....I know I can :pray::pray::pray::pray:

I am so nervous about the decision to have the lap band placed. I know that it is the right thing to do and that I'll feel so much better than I do now but I am so scared about having surgery. I wish I could conquer the fear of going under anesthesia but I have never done it before and I am so afraid that I won't wake up and see my babies! Sometimes I think that being a nurse was definately the wrong decision for me. I know too much and I have seen the "surgeries gone bad" On the flip side of that, I have also seen 30-some year olds have heart attacks and strokes. I also know that I don't want to be unhealthy for myself anymore and for my babies I want to be a good role model for Anna so that she doesn't end up like I am! Where did the 244 pounds come from?? 2 weeks ago I weighed 234 pounds...I'm sooo pissed that I can't be "normal" for even that amount of time. If I do not watch every second of eating....I gain weight at such a rapid pace. I want this to end. I want my body to tell me, loud and clear, HELLO.....STOP EATING!! I want to be able to pull on "anything" and run to the store in confidence that if I run into someone I won't be embarrassed. I want to wear a pair of jeans without them digging into my stomach. I want to wear a bra that doesn't leave huge indentation marks into my stomach and my arms. I want my stomach to stop flopping out over my underwear.:confused: I want to run. I want to not think about food. I want to live a day without worrying about my health, having a heart attack, a stroke, an emboli, etc. It is getting so old! I know that I am going to have to change everything about my lifestyle but I am so willing to do that now and I want my outside to match my inside. 6 more days until my consultation. I hope all goes well and that this process is started and that I can keep my nerves undercontrol......Guess I'll have to wait and see. I can do this....I know I can :pray::pray::pray::pray: