I am one of the most sensitive people that I think that God created. I cry if I am happy, sad, I find something poetic in everything and that even makes me more emotional. I say this only to say this......
Once I was banded then and only then did I learn why I was obese. I am an emotional eater. I am not sure how one feels that suffers from mental illness BUT right after the surgery I think I have an idea.
I found myself in such a depressed state because I had NO outlet for my problems.
I would feel sad...couldnt eat!!
I would feel happy...couldnt eat!!
The days of jumping in my car and getting a "bite" to eat just to be alone was over...I learned after the banding that it was not the alone time I was craving..it was that "comforting bite" that I needed.
Things are much better not...it has been 1 1/2 years and each day I am learning about myself and just how I got to be obese...but with every negative thing I learn, I am finding out just how special I am and how strong I have became.
Huggs, Shirley