Thanks for the replies everyone.
Yes unfortunately im still gaining, though now i am on self destruct i think...everything i tried wasnt working so ive given up. looking at getting a gastric sleeve preformed as i cant do this on my own. Totally gutted about this and scared it will all go wrong again but not sure what else to do. I cant work that hard to maintain my whole life, maintain at a morbidly obese weight. Hopefully sleeve will serve me better. that or some kind of lobotomy!
Thanks again