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This is me. Surgery was 6/23/14. You can also follow my blog here. http://www.bigfatloserblog.com Before - 385 After - 289 http://i.imgur.com/wp02ZHj.jpg

So I had surgery 6/23. I had great weight loss up until I was allowed semi solid foods. Since that time, I have put on 6 lbs. Is this normal? I know that I seem to snack a lot through out the day. But it's typically like some cheese or yogurt. I was just concerned, and wanted to hear some friendly advice.

http://www.healthcentral.com/obesity/c/276918/148486/soar-necessarily/ So, I have been divorced for about 2 years now, but I am curious as to how many people have had it done and are still happily married. The article touts that the percentage is 80 to 85 within the first 2 years. I wanted to start a discussion on this because I found it quite interesting.

Ouch! I had surgery on the 23rd. 2 days after getting home I'm having a severe gout flare up. I use to take a prescription nsaid called indomethacin, that would clear it right up. However, that's a huge no go now. It has been very difficult not to dip my hand in the prescription bottle in a fit of desperation. Luckily my surgeon refilled my pain meds, but I will be out by Tuesday. Any advice please?

It's funny to me because she is such a hypocrite. She speaks of hating intolerance (homophobes, sexist etc). However, does she not realize that she is being intolerant by acting like this? In my opinion WLS is a lifestyle choice. You are doing it for your personal reasons. If she doesn't agree with it, then that is fine, but ending a friendship over it is intolerant. It's just as bad as ending a friendship because you decide to date outside of your race, or date someone of the same sex, or choose a religion she doesn't agree with. You don't need hypocrisy or intolerance in your life right now. You need positive people. You are better off without her. My guess is that it's either due to jealousy, or it's a way to cause drama and gives her something to blog about.

I want cream soup too!! I read some people could have meat and veggies too...I'm like uhmm that would be nice! I screwed up and cheated last night. I read up and apparently the diet is really important to shrink your liver and avoid potential issues during surgery.

I don't want to be be skinny, honestly. I want to be at a weight that I feel confident and I am healthy. I also have never preferred skinny women over a healthy (read curvy) woman. That stood even before I was a heavy guy. I just think girls that are skinny look fragile and not attractive. I think everyone's goals should be to feel good about yourself. When you can look in the mirror and be happy with your results, you have succeeded. Personally I would like to get to a 36-38 in waist and a XL-2XL shirt.

Congrats so are you on liquid diet? No, I'm on nutrimed..Its like 2 Protein bars, 3 shakes, and one "meal" per day. By "meal" I mean a powder that I mix with Water and microwave and it turns into "Chili"

I'm eating nutrimed. Man, this thing is tough. I started Monday, and I simply do not like ANYTHING that I got. Everything leaves my stomach feeling gross and bloated. I know the importance of this diet, but I just want a real meal. Somebody save me!

6/23 sleever here too.

Jonesboro here

Originally Posted on 05/21/2014 Link to original post: http://www.bigfatloserblog.com/2014/05/the-truly-scary-part-of-bariatric.html Since I announced the surgery, I have had a lot of people ask me if I'm nervous or excited about the surgery. Obviously, it's a mixture of emotions. While the surgery is a large commitment, I am not really nervous about the procedure itself. Dr. Jones does more of these surgeries than I care to think about, and at this point I'm sure he could perform it with his eyes closed (although, I'm not volunteering for that). The hospital where I am getting the procedure is brand new, and high tech. I don't expect any problems. However, I am scared of what comes after the surgery. I know what to expect in terms of my body and my health. I know what I need to do to ensure a successful surgery and recovery. What is NOT predictable is how the surgery will change me as a person. What do I mean when I say that? Well, I have known several people that have had bariatric surgery done, and it completely changed them. It transformed them into self entitled monsters. Granted, it doesn't affect everyone this way. I haven't noticed any changes in my family member that has had it done. However, out of the 5 people I know that got it done, only 2 of them have remained similar to their old selves. Let me tell you story of my (former) best friend. He had a Gastric Bypass done. Before the bypass he was truly my brother. I spent every waking moment of my life with him from age 16 until he moved away to Houston. Amanda and I went and visited him about a year or so after his surgery, and he looked fantastic! My initial thought was how confident he was. I could tell he was happy in his skin. The longer I spent there, the quicker I realized that it wasn't only his confidence. He seemed a little different. He spoke of his friends there in Houston, and they were not the type of people we would normally hang out with. These people weren't good people. They dabbled in things and activities that he would NEVER have participated in before. He explained that he had "come out of his shell". He had the confidence now to meet new people and get out of the house. I dismissed it, because after all, he had always been overweight, and maybe it was time for him to sow his wild oats. Fast forward to about 5 years in the future. I got a phone call one day from him. He was back in town, and wanted to visit. So, without hesitation I invited him over. We had some drinks, and I offered to let him crash at my place. To cut a long story short, and because it's a little painful to talk about, it ends like this. He hacked into my PC, he stole my credit card numbers, and he talked ALL night about people that were out to get him. Like some type of weird paranoid tweaker. He said filthy things about my ex wife, and was incredibly vain. Insisting I feel his arms because he was "ripped", and this went on all night. I later learned that this surgery can change you. It can transform you into a different person. With confidence comes great risks. Especially if you have lived as a fat guy for most of your life. You get attention that you normally would not get. This can result in pretty nasty personality changes. I am FAR from perfect. I have some issues with being selfish, and I can be a bit of a cynical a*****e. However, I pride myself on my manners, and try to have respect for others. I like me. I like my personality. Moreso before I started suffering with depression. However, I remember how I use to be, and I want to be that way again. I am terrified to let this surgery change me into someone that my friends don't like to be around. I tell myself that the fact that I even acknowledge that this could be an issue may be a good sign. Being aware of my actions and behavior is the first step of preventing negative personality changes. I learned from my psych eval, that as much as I would like to avoid it, Anti-depressants are going to be in my near future. With my past struggle with depression and anxiety, I simply can't afford to take any unnecessary risks.

I started a blog about 4 years ago, and I have decided to utilize it to keep track of my surgery journey. Hopefully the forums don't frown upon this. If it's a no no, I will remove the link. This isn't a ploy for any monetary gain, just wanted to share my thoughts with the group. I would love to get some opinions or meet other bloggers and sleevers. Support will definitely be needed as I get closer to the surgery date. My blog can be found at http://www.bigfatloserblog.com I look forward to seeing your opinions here.

If you are talking about my website, I can do either. I haven't tried to make a blog entry on this website from my phone but I see no reason why it wouldn't work

Done! I went ahead and started a blog here and posted the last handful of posts from my site. Thanks for the help and advice.

Originally posted on 05/14/2014 Link to original post: http://www.bigfatloserblog.com/2014/05/the-wait-is-over-im-getting-gastric.html After just over 3 years of trying every angle to get approved for weight loss surgery, it has finally come to fruition. Since gaining employment at CUSI, I was able to pick up health insurance. Luckily my health insurance covers bariatric surgery if certain criteria are met. Such as BMI over 40, co-morbidities (like sleep apnea, high blood pressure, gout, etc). The coverage is still pretty loose as far as insurance goes, and it is definitely going to be a financial undertaking, but at this point, I think it's completely necessary, and my doctor's agree with me. My health has been getting progressively worse over the last year. The mini-stroke, the gout, my back. I have unfortunately missed a lot of work over my health, and frankly, I'm sick of it. The financial burden now will pay for itself in due time. I went to the surgeon last night and signed my consent forms and made my first payment. While they weren't able to give me an actual date of the surgery, they estimated it for early July. I still have to undergo a bevy of tests including an endoscopy, bloodwork, and a very strict 2 week liquid diet (right before the surgery), all of which will need to also be paid for. I left the Dr.'s office last night feeling like a bobble head. A bit overwhelmed. It felt like a whirlwind of facts and dates and things I need to do, and money I need to pay. Meanwhile, I have work on the back of my mind, because I know that this endoscopy, and bloodwork are going to cost me precious work hours. Hours I need to be able to make ends meet financially. Both leading up to, and after the procedure. Not to mention the amount that I have had to miss due to illness already. It's times like these that I wish I had someone in my life to lean on a little bit. I don't mean family. I have plenty of family support, but the thought of going through this alone is pretty daunting and depressing. On the other hand, I feel like this would be a lot to ask of any woman that I don't know very well. I am currently sitting and waiting for a phone call this week that will fill my schedule with dates. All of the procedures and testing leading up to the surgery, and then of course, the surgery itself. Once the surgery is complete, video blogging will commence, since I finally feel I will have something to talk about rather than just ramble on about boring daily occurrences. I'm not particularly nervous about the surgery itself, even though the consent forms I signed yesterday were scary to say the least. I am more concerned about the next month leading up the surgery and making sure there are no snags. I am already invested at this point and would like for this to go well. Hopefully no unexpected costs or medical surprises. I am very lucky and thankful to have the understanding family and employer that I have, and I can't wait to start this new chapter of my life.

Originally posted on 3/30/2014 Link to original post http://www.bigfatloserblog.com/2014/03/back-to-drawing-board.html So, a big blow to the morale! Back in January I got call from Michael at AR Rehab congratulating me for being approved for the Gastric Sleeve through a state program that would pay for my surgery. This came after 2 years of work. Doctors appts, food journals, sleep studies, psych evals, and much much more. He explained that funds would be available in March, and that I should call him back then to discuss it further. I waited until about the middle of the month to call him, and tried for over a week. He was either out of the office "temporarily" or on the other line, or a myriad of other excuses. Finally last week I received a call back from him and he left me this voicemail. (The name was distorted on purpose) I was left scratching my head after this voicemail, because it was pretty unclear. "Is he saying that they aren't going to pay for it?" I was unhappy with the voicemail, and so I called him up. I could tell by his tone he was immediately on the defense. I asked him to elaborate what the VM meant. Michael: "You listened to it didn't you? I said everything in the voicemail" Me: "Well, yea, but what does it mean that you are re-evaluating spending? Are you saying you are cutting the program." Michael: "Look Ronnie, I could have just told you no back in January, but I went to bat for you. You are being ungrateful" Me: "No Sir, I was very grateful when you told me I was approved. I told my entire family, I blogged it, and I have been expecting this surgery ever since. I would have rather you told me no in January than to congratulate me on something that wasn't a done deal." Michael: "I feel like you are being rude." Me: "I feel like you lied to me, and my whole family." Michael: "I can see that this conversation isn't going anywhere, so I am going to let you go and get back to work." That was all she wrote. I stared at my phone for a minute. I literally felt like I was punched in the gut. My next call was to Blue Cross Blue Shield. I would have to be out of pocket 4 Grand, but I was confident that I would have support to help me get the surgery. I explained that I had a packet put together already with everything they would need to approve me. Doctor's notes, medical records, (about 60 pages of information). The rep said that they would not be able to accept that from me, but instead would have to receive it from each perspective doctor. I explained that it took over 2 years and thousands of dollars to gather this information and I can't afford to go back to the doctors and get the same paperwork I already had. They insisted.... So here I am, back at square one. 400 lbs, and no closer to surgery than I was 2 years ago. So unless I squat and lay a dozen golden eggs, and shell up $16k, I'm starting over. However, I am not going to be stagnant while waiting for this to come together (if it ever does) The fact is, ever since I learned I was getting the surgery I have let myself go. Red Bulls, fast food, alcohol. All because I thought, what the hell, I'm getting the surgery in 2 months anyhow. NOPE NOPE AND NOPE. I immediately regret that. Starting tomorrow, I am going to give the Keto Diet a shot. A real shot. It is a little controversial and defies common knowledge of how diets work, but I have seen a lot of success stories revolving around this diet. And, it's gaining popularity among medical community. However, it is expensive. Let face it. Meat, Cheese, and fresh veggies are high. My health is more important though and I need to make sacrifices elsewhere so I can afford it.

ORIGINAL POST DATE: 1/4/2014 Link to original post http://www.bigfatloserblog.com/2014/01/its-official-my-life-is-going-to-change.html So, after 2 years of information gathering, and doctors appointments, I finally got the call a couple of days ago that my surgery has been approved and will be 100% paid for. The only caveat is that the funds may not be available until the 2nd quarter of the year (At the latest), but will likely be in March. After talking with the surgeon and looking over my options I have decided to go with the Sleeve Gastrectomy. It has a very high success rate. While it isn't quite as effective as Gastric Bypass, it is much much safer, with less complications and side affects. The surgeon expect that I will lose around 200lbs, but it will require a change in lifestyle. I feel like it wont be an issue for me to get up and be active once I am able to do things without hip and back pain. I will continue to blog during the journey the months before and after the procedure, and will of course update with pictures. This will be a life changing procedure for me since I have spent the majority of my life overweight. I cannot wait to see what kinds of opportunities this will afford me.

Jonesboro Here. Scheduled with Dr. Jones for 6/23

Has anyone battled with depression before/after the surgery. I had my psych eval done for my pre-auth, and the doctor recommended I go back on Anti-depressants after having been off of them for about a year. For those of you that have already had the surgery, how did it affect your depression? I am trying to avoid getting back on ADs if at all possible, but I am afraid the surgeon is going to insist.

I am scheduled for 6/23!