Hi! Congrats to you! I had my RNY Monday. And let me tell you, I had so many second thoughts, what if I fail, What if something bad happens during surgery and I did this to myself to just lose weight. Today I have lost a total of 15 lbs since Monday. I am so glad I did it. It is a new way of life. Its harder than you think trying to remember all to do. I am totally scared to eat and over eat. I think mainly you need to respect what you are doing and don't take it for granted. It's going to be a struggle, but it is a journey and your journey is different from everyone else's. I know once you get past the surgery you will be happy and excited for this new life. My Aunt died the say I had surgery. She was extremely over weight and had a massive heart attack. I know then that I had made the right decision for my family and my husband. Try to focus on all the new positives headed your way. I know it's scary but from someone who was just there, it is so worth it!!