lizjim30

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[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]My name is Liza Jimenez, I am 30 years old and I am going to have surgery on 06/11/2014. I am so excited to have this procedure done however; at the same time I make myself so nervous and sick over it.[/b][/color][/size][/font]

[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]My entire life I have been overweight. I remember being 12 years old and putting on my first pair and button up jeans and they were a size 14! Now as an adult I can't believe at the age of 12 I was in a size 14! Needless to say over the years my jeans kept getting bigger. I have dieted off and on since I was a teenager and it's always a battle. I started dieting on 01/13/2014, limiting myself to 1500 calories a day, and working out sometimes twice a day. Since then I have lost 30lbs, at times I feel like it should be more; considering I feel like I kill myself everyday at the gym. [/b][/color][/size][/font]

[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]Initially, I was invited in April to have surgery with some family memebers however; I said, "HELL NO!!". The reason I said no is because the surgery would take place in Mexico. Other than that I would have gone. After hearing their stories, it completely changed my mind. [/b][/color][/size][/font]

[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]Now the countdown is on, and I am 26 days away from having surgery. I really can't make up my mind as to why I get so nervous. I don't think its the fact of having surgery, I think I am more afraid of my life changing, I think I am afraid to breakup with food. Food has been my best friend since I can remember. Food has been with me through thick and thin, through the good times and the bad times. Greasy Mexican food has made me so happy for so long I think I am terrified to say goodbye. I sit back and question myself, "Am I really strong enough to go through this?", "Is this really going to make me happy"? Maybe I am hoping someone will come and rescue me and say "Liza you don't need to have surgery; you're beautiful just the way you are". The way that I am now? What does that mean? [/b][/color][/size][/font]

[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]The way that I am now has so many limitations to my life. I can't get on any rides at the carnival, I couldn't go parasailing when I went on vacation last year, going shopping for clothes is so discouraging. That after I leave the clothing store I turn to FOOD!! (Who doesn't love junk food from the mall?) I hope to one day have children, and I hope to be the best mother I know how to be. I want to be able to run, jump, and play with my children. At times I try to convince myself that I don't children only because I know my weight is causing me not to have children. [/b][/color][/size][/font]

[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]So in a sense after typing out what I've held inside and unable to explain, I know this is the best solution to my weight problems. At times I have felt that I am taking the "lazy" way out, however I am not looking at it that way anymore. This procedure is going to change my life, for the BEST!! This procedure will help me not kill myself at the gym, it's going to make me feel better about myself, and hopefully make all my dreams come true. [/b][/color][/size][/font]

[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]Now, I just have to prepare for my LIFE CHANGING EVENT, I feel now that I have put this out here I am ready to be realistic, and responsible for this procedure. I just pray, that everything will be ok. [/b][/color][/size][/font]

[font='comic sans ms'][size=4][color=rgb(128,0,128)][b]Thanks for listening! :)[/b][/color][/size][/font]