Breaking Red

I'm a big proponent of PERSONAL space and PRIVACY. I think the world has lists its sense of that. With FB twitter reality shows and such nothing is kept private anymore. I don't get it. You don't have to tell her. It's NOT a lie to keep something private. You are allowed to keep something private.

Today is 17 days left! I have a countdown app on my phone. I put my leave in for work Thursday. I'm taking 1.5 weeks off. I hope that is enough! Due to other injuries and recoveries he thinks I'm going to have no issues with pain.

I dont have to do a preop diet. But I want to maximize the results! I'm going to work on lowering the carbs coffee and increase the Protein now. Def don't want to deal with the no carbs after surgery. I seriously can't wait!

I'm July 9 too!

Just got my date for the 9th of July!!!!! So I set my countdown clock again..... 22 days from now. I am going on a low carb diet tomorrow. I'll start with one Protein shake for the first week. The rest protein and veggies. The next week I'll see if i can do two shakes. I want to get over the carb flu if I get it and get rid of the Water weight. I want to maximize my honeymoon stage after surgery as much as possible. Plus I'm not going to lie..... I've been eating like sh!t for a while. I need to get back on track and get my act together. It would behoove me to start now than when I'm trying to heal from surgery.

I have my appt with the surgeon tomorrow to set a date. I'm hoping for surgery in the next 2-3 weeks! Things I can't wait for: 1) no longer hating myself 2) feeling comfortable in my own skin 3) no longer wishing to be invisible in a crowd 4) no longer looking like a stuffed sausage in my uniform On a happy note: - get my sassy back - rock the self love (which I should be doing now anyways) - get my sexy butt and legs back

You look amazing! WHERE DID YOU GET THAT SUIT?!?!?! I meed one of those as part of my goal wardrobe

I hear you! I have a huge gut too! I have to wear a one piece jumper to work. I look like a stuffed sausage. I CANNOT WAIT FOR SURGERY! I have to keep getting a bigger and bigger one. It makes me want to cry

You didn't just ask a simple question. You are saying people are lying because they don't want to tell everyone and how exhausting it must be to keep that lie up. I get to define what I share with the world. No one else. And it certainly isn't a lie because I don't want to share very detail of my life. It's called PRIVACY, it's called PERSONAL BOUNDARIES. You decided to share every detail of your life great for you. That doesn't mean it's wrong or a lie to be private

OMG! Walk around Little Italy! We will restaurant hop. By the time you get out here, all the shops will have tables out on the street. We get an appetizer people watch and then move on to the next one. There are endless choices. And pretty much every choice will be absolutely amazing. You will want to remember each and every one of them but it gets overwhelming

Going thru this process I have been taking a mental/emotional journey. Why am I so fat? Why do I eat each meal like it’s my last? What’s with all the rage all the time? Why am I using food to feed my soul? In another thread about how people will say having surgery is an easy way out made me remember my past thoughts on wls. A few years ago three people within mere months had wls. And all I could think was that same old bullshit ‘taking the easy way out’ ‘just eat less and workout more’ ‘it isn’t going to work because people have regained the weight so you’re wasting your time’. Funny thing is I actually knew NO ONE that had actually regained the weight, just heard stories. I knew NOTHING about the surgeries. I had NO facts to make an intelligent decision about it. So I base my highly unintelligent opinion on NOTHING!!! Now that I am here, going thru my checklist of items I need to accomplish in order to get a surgery date, I reflect back. How many other times have I spouted off with my mouth on stuff I didn’t know about? Who the hell am I to judge anyone? I am no one special. Have I walked the proverbial mile in their shoes? No I didn’t. So I am thinking that maybe I need to STFU way more and show more compassion to my fellow human beings. Granted if you asked people that know me, they wouldn’t say I am anywhere near as bad as I am painting myself right now. A lot of it is internal thoughts and feelings that I don't say. But I think with a more positive aura, I think I would be a better person. I saw a Pinterest sign ‘Everyone is trying to fight their own battles, try not to be a c*nt’. So that is what I am trying not to do-not be a c*nt to other people and myself. And maybe if I wasn’t so harsh on myself, I may not have such an issue with food….. Just my random thoughts~

I understand the frustration you are feeling. Of course every time I have tried to eat healthier or start working out, even just walking more, I expect the BF to do so as well. It never works out well. WLS is a major life changer and not just for you, but for the family. But it may not have affected them as much or just yet. Because you have ‘seen the light’ and have a plan that you are hell bent on achieving, doesn’t mean they are in the same place. They may never be in the same place as you. That’s ok. You can’t force them too. As much as you want their support, they can only give what they have. And honestly, it may be nothing. This is your path, your struggle, your destiny. In the end it is only you that can walk your path. Let them stay home. Have the husband watch the kids while you go and workout. Enjoy the time and peace to do what you need to do at your own pace. You won’t be bothered or rushed. Honestly, outside of the BF driving me to the hospital and picking me up, that is about all that I am expecting from him. He will walk with me. I will be grateful for that. Just as long as he doesn’t try to hinder me, get in my way or sabotage me, I’ll be fine.

I haven't had surgery yet. Hopefully in the next few weeks. I wanted to add that I was one of those people and I bet most of us were at some point. I mean it is a bit crazy.... I'm going to get most of my stomach cut out of my body! And I can't wait!!! It was sheer desperation, frustration, misery and losing the 'just eat less, workout more' battle that last and final time that I finally decided to look into this option. When people say that, they just don't know. They are uninformed. I was. If asked I would have told you there is no way in hell i would get this done to me. but here i am jumping thru hoops to get this surgery done. I saw someone's response to that was 'really? Show me the medical documentation, the medical studies that backs that up'. I've told 3 people. All three support me. If I tell anyone else and that is their attitude it will simply be one question 'how much time did you look into this to come to that idea?' You can't judge till you walk in some ones shoes. People are silly. You hear people say 'I would NEVER do this' yeah well it's super easy to say you won't until you're in that situation. Then life takes over and you find that person doing that thing they vehemently opposed.

I just got the sample package myself. I will be interested to try the chicken soup protein.

I don't think it's about being completely honest or lying. You have a human right to. Have your own PERSONAL BUSINESS. You are ALLOWED to keep what ever you want private. You get decided what that is, no one else does. Why is someone's weight loss public property? Why do I have to divulge whether or not I had wls simply because someone asked me? If you don't feel comfortable don't make it public. Tell whomever you feel most comfortable with or tell no one. It is your right and neither decision is wrong. Do what's right for you. I've seen comments that you will lose credibility if you decide to divulge later on. Again I find that wrong. Again you have the right to take the time to go thru this HUGE life altering change. Family, friends, coworkers don't get to define that timeline for you. And if they feel slighted or bent out of shape, I would say you're better off without them. That person is more concerned about themselves than you. Do people ask you your salary? Your husband's penis size? Do you feel compelled to answer? That's how personal I find whether or not someone should ask if I had wls. But..... That's me. Others scream it from the rooftops and that's great for them. You should never let other people define your personal boundaries and you should never feel pressured in telling. Nor should guilt be your guide. I told my BF, daughter and BFF. That's it. Whether I tell anyone else is so far down the road it isn't on my radar. If a coworker or casual friend forced the question my reply is simply 'I've been working with a nutritionist, working out and watching my diet' If they feel the need to push it then the response is 'I can't believe you would ask a question like that'