Dragonwillow

Okay ladies I've been slacking about writing down my food intake...so have been tyring this week to do it. I've noticed a couple of things. I eat a heck alot of tofu and yogurt and I need to step away from the animal crackers...who knew I was eating so many...obviously not me! LOL Anyway if anyone has time to look in on my food diary for the last few days I'd appreciate it. I have to decide if I should cancel the fill scheduled and just work myself harder...or if the fill would be benificial. Just a warning Sunday was terrible as far as food choices go...but after I got stuck on the burrito (first couple bite as I only had 4 bites) I let myself have starbucks and part of a carmel apple. Someone slap me LOL. Follow the link in the sig to see the food diary. thanks

Thanks everyone I've been feeling much better. Surpising my boss at work was so supportive. She said, "People always think having weight loss surgery is the easy way out, and I know how hard you have worked" It just made me feel so good that she undrstood a bit. Ya know. Tomorrow I have the church retreat thing. I am going to take my protien shake and yogurt and enjoy myself while everyone else eats hotdogs. I'm surpisingly fine with that. The scale is moving again...so that always helps.

Kathy know what you mean about those starbuck things. I don't generally get frappachinos because I looked up how many calories they have. I get skim lattes when I go...and they can do them iced....so not so bad. But I was addicted to them once...and recenly about 3 weeks ago had a pumpkin spice frap...OH it was heaven in a cup! I just had an iced mocha latte from dunkin donuts today. Since I'm onl liquids only I figured it was okay. Though they could get addictive too. My engine light is on in my van, and the code says it is the transmission computer. I had the trans checked recently and they said it was rnning fine, but the light came back on. I was told it could be the computer going bad...great! I had two flats this week...was getting parinoid that someone had it in for me. But apparently the first flat might have in advertantly causd the second? The second I damaged the sidewall because Iwas on the interstate when it went and took me a minute to get to the side. So 193.00 later, I hav two new tires. Diane how much fill do you have now? I'm at 2 cc's but haven't had anything but liquids yet so can't tell you how tight I am. I know I can't guzzle down a whole bottle of Water anymore, I have to pause about every few ounces...so must be pretty tight. And my band makes the funniest noises sometimes now. LOL Oh and I don't remember who, but someone wanted one of those coffee pod makers...I have another one, it was 9.99 just like mine, cept this one is black. Don't remember who wanted it though...so yell. Karen, hang in there girl. I'm hoping they will approve you soon. If anyone needs to talk cal me on my cell number. (house phone is all screwed up still....we have vonage, and time warner cable, the cable company says its vonages problem, and vonage says its the cable ....I think we are going to go back to bell south.) Which is too bad because the vonage worked great for months and we loved it. Kim, I can't find the list of numbers of everyone...which was probally good this week when I was having my meltdown....because I couldn't bug the crap out of everyone....lol Are you still the keeper of the numbers?

I should be able to attend most of the summer ones...in the fall girl scouts will start back up and I won't be able to go anymore.

I agree with Jill, its just the stress of it. I had to convience hubby that surgery was the right thing....s when I started getting panic attacks I had to try and keep them hidden. Didn't want to worry him again. I found it easier thinking...whats the worse that can happen.....it might not work for me I might eat arond the band was my anwser. Then I immediatly followed that was whats the best that could happen. I might finally be free of constant hunger, learn to eat healthy and be a normal weight. The best that could happen of course made the gamble worth it. I've lost 43 lbs....it's not always easy, but I'm only dealing with my food choices now and all the head stuff that comes when you diet. I really don't deal with the hunger as much which certainly makes the other easier I think we all have the fantasy that one night we will go to bed and wake up thin the next morning. Unfortantly that ain't going to happen, but I guess this is the next best thing. Hope you get to feeling less anxious about it. We are all here to talk to if you need us.

I was going to the YMCA for over a year before I had my surgery...it's actually one of the reasons I decided on surgery. Hey if I'm working out 1.5 - 2 hours a day and not loosing weight, it must be what I'm eating right? LOL I was sure I would feel uncomfortable but for the most part everyone was really nice. I made friends not only with other members but with the staff. I now work there, started 2 weeks after my surgery. One of my best friends there is a personal trainer and instructor and probally a size 4 lol. She has been ALOT of help with me, especially moving over to the free weights instead of always using the machines. She has NEVER judged me, and knows how hard I work at this. She keeps telling me when I loose the weight my hard bod will emerge because I lift higher than typical weights for a "girl".

Wavy I should come over and we can have a protein shake making party...lol. I have a couple different ones we could make and try to see if you like. I like the cappachino flavored eas drinks that are pre made.....They are kinda pricey though....shhh don't tell Paul. But cheaper than starbucks....though not as good as starbucks.

Wavy....I remember in my first meeting with Diane her telling me that we could eat just like an rny patient and loose just as much. I rebelled at the thought then. I thnk I called Kim all upset if I'm remembering right. I did go ahead and get the fill today....liquids for the next 3 days. I did tell the nurse how I felt so stressed by the whole counting every part of every calorie..meaning counting the fat the Protein, the carbs, the sugar...and how I cried yesterday about it. She says she has asked Diane for advice and that Diane lives what she preaches. She even joked that she has seen her count out how many carrots she can eat in a serving. I joked that I consider carrots a free food and she said, so did she! lol I was able to laugh about it today...but I still don't see how I can LIVE and loose weight that way. This was one of the whole reasons I chose the band over the rny. So guess I'm being a brat about it too LOL. Part of my last fill was missing in action. I had gotten 1.5 cc's last time, but only 1 cc was there. He said that explained why I didn't feel must restriction. I asked if that meant a leak, but he didnt' think so, he says it happens sometimes with the first fill. I have 2 cc's now. He made me drink a glass of Water...asked how I felt. I felt like I might have to burb...so he made me drink another whole glass just to make sure. I can defiently feel a little something just with liquids, so guess when I start solids back I will defiently feel something. Diane I do tend to be a bit obssesive when I'm focused. I'm trying to be focused, making sure I follow the rules. I'm an all or nothing type of gal. If everything doesn't fit right into the boxes I have, I kinda freak and say what the heck why bother. I dont' want to do that with the band...this has GOT to stick for me. I NEED to loose this weight this time, I can't accept another failure. But I almost feel like the nutritionist expects too much from me and I just can't seem to measure up. That jumble of explianation make any sense to anyone? Anyway, not as depressed and downhearted as yesterday...still not cheerful, but working on it.

I get the fruit parfait at Mcdonalds....though I was just told yesterday by the nutritionist that it has too much sugar and I shouldn't eat it if its not ff and sugar free. Its 120 calories, without the granola, and 160 calories with. I think it has like 8 or 9 grams of Protein. I have kids and while I avoid fast food as much as possible its just not able to avoid it totally. I will probally continue to eat the fruit parfait as I feel its the healthiet choice for me there. I can't eat french fries there either anymore, and I'm very grateful for that.

I'm right there with you....just over 6 months for me and I'm down 42lbs. I'm frustrated to say the least. Have been crying most of the day because I feel so frustrated. Looks like 40lbs is pretty normal since alot of us are right about there at 6 months. Question...what things do you keep track of food wise? Calories, Protein, carbs, fat, sugar....and if you are keeping track what are your targets for the day? I'm having a real tough time with this. I can keep calories low, protein high, the others are just plain frustrating and make me feel deprived and punished to restrict them too much. The nutritionist thinks thats why I'm not loosing more...hence the crying jag.

I used carb countdown milk to put my mixes in. It has a bit more protein in it thn other brands if I remember right. I tried to get in about 30 grams of protein per drank especially the first bit since I couldn't even drink but like 2 oz at a time. I tried to get in 2 drinks a day. I drank them out of a medicine cup or shot glass. LOL

Congrats Vickie, it really depends on what your doctors orders are, but I'd start trying some Protein powders now to find one you like. You want as much protein as possible, with the least amount of calories possible. I like the GNC brand "proplan" I think. I also like the coffee flavored EAS brand premixed drinks. They can be rather pricey though that way. If you doc lets you have mushies pretty soon. Stock up on soft foods you like, but try to keep the protein high. You probally won't be eating much so caloires while important isn't as important as protein. Move as soon as you are able after surgery and try not to sit too long at any length. The more you move, the quicker your recovery and the I really believe the easier the gas pain. I did laps around the inside of my house every hour the first few days home. Good luck and if you are feeling up to it, join us on the 20th for our meeting.

I am sitting here crying over food, and I had promised myself I would never let any diet or plan do that to me again. My nutrionist asked me to email her my food diary. I feel like everything I'm doing is wrong. I'm not suppouse to have anything with sugar or more than 20 g of fat in a day on top of everything else. I can't do this. I worked out today....ellipitcal burned 600 calories according to the machine (tends to be a bit on the higher side probally)...but I haven't even ate 600 calories today. I'm canceling the fill for tomorrow. I don't need it i don't think. It took me almost 45 minutes to eat 120 calorie micowave meal today. But I don't know what to do. I can't do it her way, and my way isn't working.

6 months out...and I'm still not getting enough fiber...so I take benefiber...chewable tablets. Seems to be helping. Colace is also something I took for awhile....it helped but I worry about being too dependent on something.

Kathy congrats on your year bandiversy...didn't catch it either...we are slacker band buddies! That's great that you are almost ready for your tummy tuck. I really think my "apron" is the reason my pant size hasn't went down much. Its very annoying. I keep trying to visualize what size I'd be at goal and I have NO clue! LOL What size does someone 5'6'' 145 lbs wear? I'm not eating soft foods so I can eat more...I'm sure. When I go out to eat I usually attempt to eat something more solid so I get the restriction. I'm taking a turkey tenderloin frozen meal today. Found it in my freezer..hope it's still good LOL.

I'll try the eating more solid food tomorrow and see how it goes. I have trouble eating period at work...thats why I usually go for yogurt there. If I get busy and eat too fast yogurt doesn't cause problems.

I have used colace (stool softner) and recnetly trying out chewable benefiber...so far so good.

I'm a tofu fanatic now. I didn't eat it much before if at all. I also don't like soda at all anymore ...I think it tastes horrible. Still love me some sweets. I have to avoid them or I go overboard.

I can wear Kristen's dress! It of course looks better on her...but I can wear it. She told me I could wear it to Pauls reunion. She has lost weight recently...more than me actually lol. I told her if she lost too much and her dress was too big I'd buy her another if she wants. I'm so proud of her. She has really stuck to the no soda and no meat thing.

Since I'm going on the cruise in June I need a dressy dress for dinner. Anyone have something in 18 they don't need or that I can borrow? Diane, since you have been on cruises before...how dressy do I need?

Bondgirl, wanna a job ....part time...I get free membership for working at the Y. I know the steel creek Y is hireing subs...but that would get you a charlotte membership. You could ask at your y if they are hireing. I get free day care while working and the new law (might be nc) says I can only work for 2.5 hours while my kids are in day care...so yah shorter shifts and still a free membership. Plus there is pathways. It's based not only on income but expenditures. I know my y is looking for more child care folks that can work like 10:30-1:00 shifts occassionally.

Okay...writing things down that I eat, I'm loosing weight again. I think I should call and cancel the fill...as I got stuck today at the mall on a burrito with tofu? And looking at my food log...I'm eating an awful lot of soft foods. I only ate actual meat like 3 times this week, and one of those was fish...so not sure that counts. What do you think ladies? Do I have soft food syndrome. I ate a scrambled egg for Breakfast on saturday with now promblem and some shrimp last night. I got stuck today on a burrito with rice and tofu at the mall. Maybe I was just eating too fast? Give me a dose of honesty....this is what I ate on friday all day....too much soft foods right? Breakfast coffee w/coffee mate creamer 20 minutes later bryers light yogurt total 130 calories, 8 grams protien snack yogurt...yoplait light and 3 slices of cheese 240 calories, 12 grams protien Lunch: 1/2 block of tofu stir fried with light sauce 200 calories, 18 protien snack: mcdonalds ice cream cone (they were out of parfaits) 150 calories, 4 protien dinner 1/2 block of tofu stir fried 200 calories, 18 protien 30 minutes later coffee with coffee mate 30 calories 0 protien. total 940 calories, 60 grams of protien

Angie...that was a tame response. Wavy...pierced from lbt is sending me one that might work. I did look at torrid today...there is sad pickings now. They do have clearance going on...wish I had of bought some cute shirts. But Karah was driving me nuts....other customers were paying her to crawl under the dressing room door to unlock it for them when they let it close accidently. I had to get her out of there, she was up to a 1.50! So embarrising.

Better watch that Wavy, Dr. Bauman doesn't require a pre surgery diet...but if you gain weight.....well you will be doing the pre surgery diet like I did! LOL Maintain is the name of the game....LOL.

The scale is moving again!!!!!!! YEAH...thats all I got to say LOL.