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:smile2: Oh no....I'm the minority here. I like RR. She's the kind of perky I want to be. I'm too nasty by far and bitch at people way too much. I admit, though that was stupid of her to say, given the topic. Also, I haven't watched the show. I watch her 30 minute meals. Maybe in small doses she's better?

Wow...I'm sure I don't wanna know! Then you don't want to read this: I was tossing a deck of cards to my ex one time, and he was sitting on the sofa...My aim was low...he didn't catch them...It was BAD. Poor fella.

I am happy for you. I have to admit - the only thing about the bf I really don't like is that he is a bit homophobic. Behind my house on the corner my neighbors are gay and I visit them by myself. He's learned to keep his mouth shut around me, but I'm not sure I've changed his mind. I just keep asking, "How does it effect YOU?" I just don't get it. Why do other people care so much? What are the reasonings behind it? It's sad, really. But, I am always happy when people are out and happy and showing it in the face of people who care over-much what others are doing. Someone posted here the other day, and I don't know who...or why...but they quoted: The best revenge is to live well! I agree 100%. re: Austin's weirdness - Never been to Austin! Why is it weird?

RSG - I'm not a lesbian, but I am very active in gay rights. I have been influenced by a cousin who has been with her girlfriend ever since I was a kid...She's 12 years older and they're in their 40's now. I saw her go through bf after bf and when she came out, she was the happiest I ever saw her. The two of them are the most stable relationship I've ever witnessed. I just saw this thread in new posts and wanted to offer my support! :smile2:

Man...people will fry anything! I've seen bulls balls in the store...My mother and I have the same humor as a 14 year old boy and we got a giggle from it. I'm not ashamed...much.

What is there to eat on chicken feet? Oh, yeah, and pigs feet are gross, too. Maybe we can just rule out all feet?

I think I'm weird with my tastes...I'm not really a picky eater and will try anything. If we can kill a cow and serve it up for breakfast, lunch and dinner, then why not crow? or horse...or dog...or cat? (Although, I may have trouble with dog, since I love dogs, but then again - I love cows too.) If it's a cultural cuisine, then why not? Of the weird world of food, I'd love to try rattlesnake - haven't had that yet. Shark is too gummy for me, at least the kind I had I didn't like. What else is weird that people eat?

Lately, I have noticed that people talk to me like I’m fat. Of course, I AM fat….but mentally I’m losing my “fat person” mentality. First, my friend still thinks I’m her eating buddy. We don’t hang out that much, so when we do, she talks about getting this food and that food, then gets that “you suck” look when I order soup or a salad. And, sometimes even actually says: “You suck”. Gee, thanks. Secondly, my boss is (my guess) around 350 – 400 pounds and refuses to diet. She is in that “I’ll start on Monday” mode. I’ve been there, I understand, but I can’t enjoy the same foods that she does. Today she brought me out a Maxine cartoon that says: “My body is a temple where junk food goes to worship”. She wanted me to post it at my desk and said, “I guess we both feel like this, huh?” Well, no. Not really. Then, people were coming by and reading it and laughing – and I was embarrassed. I think part of it is that I see overweight people (like me) who just eat and eat and eat….and then get dessert - and I just don’t get it. How did I DO that? Physically, how did I eat that much? I think about eating a full meal out now and I get sick just thinking about it. I’m surprised when ½ a sandwich goes down. More importantly, I’m FULL when ½ a sandwich goes down. Inside of me I see a thin person, but it’s hard to face the fact that I’m still a fat chick to the rest of the world. I know I am because they keep offering me cake, and looking at me like I’m crazy that I don’t want dessert, or extra helping, or the rest of my helping. I get those looks like, “Yeah...you didn’t get fat from not eating…come on!” I’m fat, but: I don’t want to order appetizer I don’t want to order dessert I do want a take home box I really don’t want anything from the vending machine right after just coming back from lunch.

You're right! I'd forgotten this story, but once my mother lost a bunch of weight via WW and was at McD's. She was at the register when a large woman (mom says maybe 200 lbs?) came in and the kids behind the register said, "Here comes a large order." To them, mom would get the joke and laugh with them because she wasn't part of the fat club. She just stared them down with her mom look and they shut up. Thank you Plain! As I was reading this, I felt the thin person inside me flexing that mental finger....

Fooey!!! I had a long post written out and my screen refreshed on me while I was hitting backspace and DARN IT, FOOEY...FOOEY!!!! My long post, now cut short: Mrs. FlipFlops - would you do it at 220 now if you could go back, knowing now what you know about the band? I know I would! I waited because my ex didn't want me to do it, and I conceded. Now, 6 years later, I'm just beginning my journey to normal.

LOL...I'm getting like that with WW points. (Following it along with my DD.) So, yeah! I know what you mean - people just don't wanna know! I'll just start smoking...

The comic strip is funny... I just think it's happening more and more by the fat people in my life. The ones who think I'm there for them when they want to be fat. Everyone else is normal, but I'm the one who "gets it" because I'm fat. And, I am fat...and I DO get it. It's just hard to not cringe when I see that behavior. Mainly because I see myself there, and I don't want to be a part of that anymore. My mother is a food pusher and a BIG eater. My whole family loves to eat, so for me to just sit there while they all eat and eat and eat...It's a strange feeling. Like watching alcoholics drink. It's hard to watch and not be able to say anything. At a restaurant the other day I overheard a daughter ragging her mother about smoking. The smoker was a smallish woman in her early 60's, maybe and the daughter was around 300 pounds, and she was eating dessert while the mother had a cigarette. The daughter just kept on and on about how she wish she would quit and that it wasn't healthy...and the mother finally said, "I'll put my cigarette down when you put your fork down." I guess my point was less anger than just a breaking point. I'm not in that club anymore, and I know so many people who are. It's comforting to have fat people around - misery loves company. But, since I don't look "normal" yet, I guess it's weird to them that I am "acting normal"? I guess...I dunno. Just thought it was strange, and I don't know how to react. I guess nothing gets hurt if I just let it roll. But, part of me wants to help my friends, and I know from experience that I can't. But, I can get skinny and show 'em! lol

Me, too! :wink_smile:

My vote on the call would be "yes". Only for the reason that if it were me, I'd want to know. I'd also leave his butt. If you can't get past it, and therapy isn't helping, then you'll never have the relationship you thought you did. I cheated on my first bf (high school sweetheart, on-again off-again) and on the off-agains I always found someone new. We finally got back together for about a year at the end, but he couldn't get past it. He was always asking questions about it...and getting mad at me for other stuff. Finally, he broke up with me because he couldn't trust me. I am glad he did, really. We are better friends, and the relationship was just bottoming out. It never got better. A couple years later, I was with someone who cheated on me. I found myself in the same situation as my ex, and I understood 100%. If you can't trust the other person, then there IS NO relationship. You need that trust or else you feel like you're with a stranger. I know you have a lot vested in this. Are you chosing to stay with him? undecided? Can you move out for a while? You do need some "me time", and time to step away from it. When something consumes you like this is, you can never get past it. You HAVE to either forgive it, and trust him again or leave him for good.

Although not eloquent, this description was definitely accurate and creative at the same time!

:bored: he he...yeah, pretty much. Although, I got so hungry, I needed a snack. So, rather than the m&ms...I grabbed some weight control oatmeal I had in the desk. I put more water in it than I used to, and can never eat the whole thing, but it took the edge off. whew! I hate being hungry, because when I do sit down to eat, I tend to scarf down my food...then get stuck...then can't eat...then still stay hungry...then just eat ice cream later. :wink_smile: Better to avoid all that when I can!

Breakfast??? What's that?

I'm starving and it's way too early for lunch. ....Mmm....eyeing the vending machine in the kitchen.... Peanut M&Ms have protein, right?

I love Pappadeux - the fondue is soooo yummy. I've tried the alligator there, and it's the same - kinda chewy. I like the soft shell crab. Is it lunchtime yet???

I can't do alligator since banding...it's too chewy and I'd rather have the catfish, too. But I do like it. We went to Red Lobster the other day to try the tilapia w/white chocolate (from the Next Food Network Star on Food Network) it was YUMMY, YUMMY, YUMMY. Highly recommended. My DD and I split one, though, since one serving is 14 points on WW. :wink_smile:

Oooh! I get it! I'm slow. Dairy makes me gag.

I'm getting tired of being tired. Must. Remember. To. Take. Multivitamins! Sometimes ima dumb-butt.

I think I'll answer with this the next time someone asks why I got fat. At the very least it will make the men drool.

Kat, I was just thinking about insurance vs. PS reasonings this weekend. I moved this weekend and my bras are not made for that kind of workout! I have a rash on the top of my stomach and the underside of my breasts. I also have a stinging sensation under the flap of my stomach. I'm down 70 since surgery and have 70 more to go, but I was wondering if I should see the doctor about the rash NOW, and show documentation for it. I know PS is in my future... But, in your post you mention that the insurance co. wants to see that you've tried other things. If I may ask, what else did they need to see for you? What documentation did you show, and how long did you have to wait for approval? I'm really worried about the loose skin. My under arms wave longer than I do, my belly is hanging lower than it did, my breast are more saggy without the support of my big belly, and my butt is a helluva lot lower than it used to be. I love the weight loss when I'm wearing jeans and t-shirt, but the naked effect is similar to a melting candle.

Okay, just joining in to the violet crumble conversation...LOVE THEM. Best friend's brother-in-law is an Aussie, Aussie, Aussie - Oi! and they go every year "back home" and I make them bring me back voilet crumbles. World Market *sometimes* has them, but not all time. Thank goodness!!! I'd be in trouble!