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So today I took my first ever cycle class. HOLY HECK! :laugh: First I did intro to cycle for 30 minutes then took the 45 minute class right after. It was so incredibly hard for me.... had no idea what I was getting myself into. I felt like an idiot! Especially during the parts were she told us to stand up. I had NO idea how hard that would be. I don't really ever want to do that again, but I will. I'll make myself go again if it kills me!

You all are incredible. I definately gained some inspiration reading this tonight! I'll give a try to posting my daily exercise. Seems like you all are a great support to each other! Today I joined a gym after not having a membership for about 8 months or so. My eyes were wide in this place cause it is about 10 times the size of the YMCA I was going to before. I'm pretty excited. Trying to find that motivation I used to have. So, today I only had time to hop on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I mostly walked but threw in some 1 minute runs. Tomorrow I signed up for an intro to spin class. I've never done it before. I imagine tomorrow night I'll feel like crap!

I hoped to never be one of those annoying, whining,"oh poor me" people who post on this board begging for help, so if this is any of those things, I apologize in advance! With that said, I am struggling SO bad! I'm trying so hard to figure out how I lost control and how to gain it back. The first 6 months after surgery I was on top of the world. I lost 65 pounds. Then life happened. My husband was in an accident and I thought I was going to lose him. I went on to lose about another 15 pounds, probably from stress. Then, I stopped exercising, stopped counting calories, stopped worrying about what I was putting in my mouth, etc. etc. etc. I still can't seem to find the motivation to return to exercising. I still don't stop myself from eating junk. I still make up excuses why I'm not doing what I KNOW is best for myself. Now, it's been more then a year since my husbands accident. He still hasn't been able to return to work and the weight of the world still feels like it is on my shoulders. Between working full time and taking care of 2 toddlers plus a husband who can't seem to find a way to move past what happened to him, I just don't put my health, my weightloss, or anything about me, first. I wish I could somehow forget that the entire last year ever happened! I have put back on 20 or 25 pounds that I worked so hard to lose. My clothes aren't fitting well and I threw away all the "fat" clothes. My husband was converted to long term disability so we lost our medical insurance. I can no longer go for a fill unless I pay for it out of pocket which is definately not in the budget. I'm so frustrated and disgusted. I don't know what it is going to take to get back on track. I know none of you can do it for me. I guess I just hoped typing this out and getting it off my chest might help. I might also be hoping that someone has some words of wisdom for me. Every day I tell myself I am going to make better choices. Every day I tell myself I am going to get some type of exercise in. Every night I beat myself up again because I didn't do it..... pretty please.... someone give me a kick in the butt here!!!! Renee :crying:

Wasn't sure where to ask this question and I am sure it has been asked a few times before but.... Does anyone have an explanation as to why the band might be tighter in the morning? I have a very difficult time eating much before noon. I'm ok with it because I actually LIKE drinking a Protein shake for Breakfast. However, by dinner time, the band seems to have loosened so much that there is no limit to how much I could eat. I wish I could reverse it cause I am and always have been a night time eater!

Wow Chrisann, you are doing awesome! Your goal is in sight and you look fantastic! RedTulips, you are almost there too! I admire the both of you so much for sticking with it. As for me... I am STRUGGLING! Grrrr! I have 50 excuses, some good and some bad. My husband was in an accident, had back surgery and then got MRSA that set in to the vertebrae in his back and spread to his hip. I completely, COMPLETELY lost focus. I stopped following all the rules, I stopped exercising, I quit coming to this site and then I started putting some of the weight back on. I just recently have gotten myself re-dedicated and I intend to finish what I started. No more excuses! If it takes getting up at 5 am to go exercise, that's what I'll have to do! I hope to post in about 6 months from now that I am at or at least very near goal!

I haven't stayed on plan in so long. It's time to quit making excuses and just do it.

Georgiagirl!! Hey there! Well, I had strep this last week. Man, was I SICK! You'd think being that sick I would have lost a few pounds, but it looks like I'm up a couple. (I am going to wait until Monday morning for my official weigh in) Wow, this has become such a struggle! I am not sure where to find that will power I had the first 6 months I had my band. I never cheated one time for 6 months! If I could only do half that good I would probably at least be losing slowly. Like georgia, low carb works really well for me. I am just really bad at it! I would rather take a beating then not ever be able to have a slice of pizza! (Boy is my fat Renee side rearing it's ugly head!) I'm feeling like such an incredible failure right now! GRRRRR!!!! I am going to set a couple of goals for this week and force myself to stick with them and then each week add a couple more. It's kinda like doing it all and being a good little bandster is just too much! Soooo... how about I I say that I am only going to have my 3 small meals a day and NO Snacks and I am going to start over on week 1 of Couch to 5K (again!) which means I will exercise 3 times this week. I CAN DO THIS!

It's 4 in the morning and here I sit searching this site for some inspiration. I think this thread was calling me! I'm going to try to make this short and sweet, but here is my story : I got my band on Jan.8, 2008. At the 6 month point I had lost 65 pounds! I couldn't have been more happy. Then life decided to take some not so fun turns. My husband was in a car accident and after months of trying physical therapy and medications and anything you could think of, he ended up having back surgery in July. 4 weeks later they did a 2nd surgery because he ended up getting MRSA which set in to the disc and vertebra in his back and spread to his hip. I think the MRSA nearly killed him. I lost almost 15 more pounds from the stress of the situation. It has been 8 months since his 2nd surgery and he is still unable to work and probably will never be able to return to the same type of work again. All of this has put the weight of the world on my shoulders. Oh poor me, right! I keep trying to remind myself that it could be worse. At any rate, I have forgotten about taking care of me because he needed me and my kids needed me, so I put myself on the back burner. My lowest weight was 182.5. I guess I have been on a vacation from my healthier lifestyle because now my scale has crept back up over 200. How could I let myself gain back over 20 pounds????? I SWORE I would NEVER go over 200 pounds ever again! I have been beating myself up so bad which has led to just stuffing more food in my mouth that I know I shouldn't! Junk food has become my friend. It is easy. OK, I have admitted to having gained the weight. Now it is time to get back on track. I'm so glad I found you all. I'm looking forward to checking in here and knowing there are people out there that won't judge and who might just understand my struggle. Here is my first goal..... I want to get back to onederland!

Hello all of my long lost friends! I'm not sure I even know where to start again with you all. I've probably been gone way to long to fit in again! Well, I hadn't exercised in a good 5 or 6 months. I embarassed to say that I have gained back some of the weight that I worked SO hard to lose. I have been hiding out due to pure humiliation. Life has been HELL and there literally has been no time to spend focusing on myself. SOOOO... now that I have spilled all of my excuses. I'M DONE! I got on the treadmill on Monday and then again this evening and started the couch to 5K over from week 1. I thought about skipping a few weeks, but I figured since I haven't been working out in so long that I better start out slow. I'll see if I change my mind since week 1 seems entirely too easy. I am so glad to be running again and I am watching what I eat again and I WILL finish what I started over a year ago. I joined a weightloss challenge at work and if I can manage to win I could win $600! I hope you all have been well and I am looking forward to getting to know some of you who are new regulars!

HELLO EVERYONE! Well, I completely lost my motivation for awhile there. Stress just consumed me for a few months. But, I am back and I am ready to rededicate myself. I'm not sure I am going to be able to start running more then a couple times a week. But this thread has always had a special place in my heart. You are all such amazing inspirations and I've missed you all! I will probably have to read back a few pages to catch up on what you all have been up to. I hope everyone has been well! SOOO... tomorrow morning I am going to hop on the scale (I've been too afraid). I will update my ticker and it will probably be AWFUL! But, that's ok. It's time to get busy!

Well, it seems I am finding less and less time to post. Unfortunately, I think that means I am less and less dedicated to my weight loss. I have been stuck at about the same weight for several months. Probably need a fill, but it is not in the budget as we lost our medical insurance when DH was converted to Long term disability. So that's it for blah news.... Now for good news. 1. DH is improving. He is moving about more and able to participate with physical therapy. It will probably be another few months before he is back to himself, but progress is good. 2. I am going on a mini vacation for Thanksgiving. YAY! I get to take my girls to Arizona to spend the holiday with my parents. I am so excited and I really need a few days. 3. I GOT THE JOB! I start Dec. 1st. I'll be a Health and Wellness Director for an assisted living residence. Renewed - enjoy your date night! How fun will it be to get some new clothes! Kathy - when you figure out the whole work full time and still find time to run thing... will you fill me in? LOL Thankyou to all of you for letting me pop in and kind of be a running wannabe. I sure hope I can find time to start running again. I have never had anything else in my life give me such a personal sense of accomplishment. You'd think I would find time since it makes me feel so great....