I know this is an older post but I am struggling with the exact same feelings. All my paperwork is submitted & I'm swirling for a date & it feels like "no man's land" - I hate it. I am probably up 5-7# (I don't want to weigh myself) and I'm not quitting smoking. I blame it on work stress guy stress etc but deep down I know I'm only hurting myself . Going to see my therapist early next week. You're not alone - all the best to you.