Carrie Leigh Grubbs

I am only two weeks post op. I have tried eggs, Beans, bites of meat, and crackers all NOT on my diet. I am failing this..... I have thrown up twice.. I am struggling so so bad with hunger and just food in general. I do my Protein shakes, I walk, I have lost weight. BUT OMG how I hate myself for everything I put in my mouth I am not supposed to. Both my sons, their wives and my grandbabies and my husband are all staying in my house right now since we moved to another state and they are getting on their feet here.. There is always something being eaten/cooked or snacked on. It makes me feel like I am trying to quit drugs in a crack house. I need to find so much strength to do this right and I have no idea where to get it from. I have to use this tool and make a change. Anyway I guess I am just hoping people can send some strength my way.