Hi Nymps:
It's been ages since I logged on. Life has been crazy busy so that's my excuse. Anyway, I dropped by and decided to catch up with all the threads I have missed over the past few months and I wanted to share some of the things I have learnt during this weighloss journey.
1) Being banded does not meant all your problems are gone - especially the emotional ones. I don't know about all of you, but even with the pounds coming off, I still feel like a fat girl. I still forget that I am getting smaller when I go shopping and even though I have dropped a few sizes, I still find myself picking up my size 16's. Losing weight in this was is also helping me slowly let go of the image I have in my head about what I've always looked like.
2) The gym is my best friend - whao, that is so true. I hate exercise, but I have learnt to love how my mind and body feels after a good workout. It is also the thing that keeps me from gaining weight on the weeks I am at a plateau and eating chocolate icecream and cheese cake because of my cycle. It's been a relationship that I intend to maintan for the rest of my life. I go at least five times a week and I am gaining so much strenght and building killer muslces.
3) The band truly is ONLY a tool - it's no wonder we have to go for fills time and time again. Since my surgery Nov 1st, I have had only four fills (my doc is very conservative and spaces fills out between 8-10 weeks). I am sure we all know that we can "eat around the band" if we really try, however, the idea is to make better food choices, listen to our bodies and get back on track when we fall down. Bottom line, we still have to do all the hard work.
4) Dieting was banded right along with my stomach - I refuse to go on another diet and that is the decision I made when I was banded. No more Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Atkins etc...since my surgery, it's been about great food choices, (not always, I'll admit) and excising. Some valuable changes that I made for the long run, that I can live with including giving up soda's or anything with high frutose corn syrup, going organic and eliminating all hydrogenated oils and fats from my diet.
5) I am Human - most of all, the biggest lesson I have learnt is that I am human...go figure...LOL. But this is crucial in helping me realize that I am not perfect, and somedays, when I feel down and under because of a decision I have made, I can forgive myself because after all, it's part of who I am.
Now, I am halfway through my journey. My goal is to lose 80-100 lbs and so far I have lost 40lbs, and by November, I hope to have reached that goal. If I am not there yet, that too will be O.K...as long as I don't gain anything, which has not happened, yet.
Actually, when I went for my last fill, this past Tuesday, I was a little bit disappointed that I had only lost 1.5lbs and before I even begun to grumble, the nurse at the office said, "worry, you are still on track because you have not gained anything back." That was enough to reassure me that the band was the best decision I have ever made.