pullmeoutfrominside

April 15 is the date. I am doing better at my pre op diet today. joining the support group really helps. thank you everyone for support.

I have struggle a little bit since staring my pre op stuff. Like I had to quit smoking 4weeks before surgery. today I quit finally and its almost 2 week before surgery. quitting is not really a big deal to cut out for me. It is the food. I feel I might be co-dependent on food. but going through this journey has made me more self aware. the doctor put me on an all protein shake diet. I can drink up to 4 a day. I am not going to lie, I have cheated. I feel since the date is getting closer I really need to work on the mental part of this disease. I will get through this. I am afraid of failing. but maybe this is the thing I will successes in my life.