I think it's pretty normal to be second guessing. I am going through that too right now. As with you, I have my birthday this month as well as 3 other family members. We all celebrate with food and I am just going to have to learn to celebrate along with them without food. I was extremely excited after my meeting at the end of February and as soon as I had my surgery date, I said oh sh**! haha....I know everything is going to go great and I just need to keep the positives in my vision instead of focusing on the negative. I started sabotaging and making excuses as to why I shouldn't. Good luck and try to keep the good stuff in your site, you can do it