I am so sorry that you are going through that, and I completely understand. I have chosen, the opposite. I tell everyone. If they choose not to support you in this journey then that is their problem. This is a decision that you made for yourself. To better yourself. In this instance it is totally ok to be selfish. I continue to tell myself that everyday and ignore those who cannot stand by me in this journey. You will have anxieties and stuggles along this path because that is what is humanly normal. Don't allow others to add to those feelings. One day, when you look back at the overweight, not so healthy, sometimes insecure life that you are living now (at least I am)- you will be grateful you made this decision. Those who are unable to be happy for you now will have nothing to say then. Good luck!!