mars: No judgement here, believe me. But it is so easy to get off track with the band. One thing to avoid is what they call the "soft diet syndrome". I have suffered this myself without even realizing it. Sometimes banders don't realize that they really should only be eating about 1/2 cup of food at a time, its foreign to us so we will gravitate toward soft easy to get down foods. Those calories really add up, I battle this myself. Take a look at your diet, you should be comsuming about 1/4-1/2 cup of solid protein at meals, well chewed. Like 1/2 a chicken breast or what have you. You have to keep up on your fills of course, and exercise. I am a slow loser myself, so I have suffered all the pit falls too. Try eating very small portions of dense proteins, several times a day, without fluids, and well chewed. Also I recommend the book "The success habits of weight loss surgery patients" by Colleen Cook. Its really good, it talks a lot about personal accountability. I know its hard, I know your trying, but there is help out here for you. You can do this!!! Feel free to PM me if you want to, I've been where you are, I promise there's a way out. I'll be thinking of you, and hoping that we can speak sometime soon.