eat4life

[font=tahoma][color=rgb(75,0,130)]Hello, My name is Janette. I have spent the last three decades struggling with my weight. I have been morbidly obese for two of them and now considered super obese. I have had a colorful past with my share of Love and Loss and through this journey of emotional eating I have put everyone else in my life first and I have paid the Ultimate price. Yep, my health. Don't get me wrong no one forced me to eat a damn thing. I just didn't have the strength, knowledge or will to want any better. Until now...My health has been slowly spiraling out of contol and I feel as though I am looking my own Mortality in the face. This decision to have a vertical sleeve has weighed( no pun intended) heavy on my mind and my heart. I believe everything happens for a reason and I am truly blessed. Let me give you a little background.....I lost my father to Cancer unexpectedly, he was 55 and passed within 7 months of diagnosis. We never really had a relationship but before he passed were able to rectify that. Within 1 month after he passed I divorced my husband of 14 years because of his need for alcohol and my need for more. A year to the day my fathers mother became terminally ill with colon cancer and my siblings and I spent the next year being her care giver. Ultimatelly she passed. See we lost a lot in those few years and we gained a lot too. Our father and grandmother made sure to give us some financial security. So the way I see it, my Father was able to give me a chance at Happiness by making sure I financially could make the move. I have since remarried and found the most incredible man and step father for my son, my ex and I are better friends now than ever, and I have an amazing bond between my siblings that I didn't have before we lost our Dad and Grandma. I was diagnosed with Diabetes at the same age as my father, 40. My legs have started to swell, I have an extremely fatty liver, a gallstone, gerd and all the aches and pains and chronic fatigue that all of us obese people suffer from. So I finally made the decision to have the surgery when I discovered that my Insurance will NOT cover it, no matter what. I felt devistated, like I had just been kicked in the gut. I started to think about it and decided that if I paid for it I would be taking money away from my family. I couldn't do that...than something just snapped in my head...And I thought ya know what I can pay for this and I don't have the right not to pay for it. I'm worth every penny and this is my Grandmas way of giving me a second chance at Living again! I have to do this for myself...its just money and if I don't I might not be here in ten years to enjoy life! From that point ond to myself if this is meant to be everything will fall into place easily and if it turns into a struggle than maybe I need to take a step back. Let me say I went to my seminar class on b 26 and I had an appt. for my consult with Dr. Joyce by March 7..And when I went into see him I already had all my clearances from the Cardiologist and the Pulmonary doc. Wegery that day for April 14, 2014..So I am one week away from starting my pre-op diet and I go in tomorrow for my blood work and on Weds. I see the Dr. for our last visit before surgery... I am so truly Blessed...I'm excited, a bit nervous....[/color][/font]