alicia28

I fell off the wagon and the wagon kept going. I am now above my original weight and not sure what to do. I had some problems with my band was unfilled, then filled back up I want to say to 9. I can eat a lot and of course I do I feel restrictions sometime. My question is how do I catch my wagon and climb back on. I am not sure what my insurance covers now regarding this surgery. The place I was getting fills is 300 w/o insurance- cant swing that at all. Is my stomach stretched out will a fill even help isn't 9cc a lot in either band? or do I still have a ways to go. I just feel like a complete failure . I cannot talk to friends or family because they have just given up on me. Any advice or anyone who got back on track- I have no willpower and thought this "tool" would help- they said if I ate too much I would puke. I have never thrown up from over eating. I am willing to pay if I know it can get me where I need to be.