Don't be so hard on yourself, Nancy. Your "head" wants to eat, not your belly, and you don't have to drag your self-esteem in either, you said it best -- old habits die hard. They do, and sometimes they don't die; they stick around and rear their ugly heads every so often. It may take a little time for you to substitute snacks that you find pleasurable. I know that feeling of wanting to eat, even though you KNOW you can't get anything down, and I've done the slow eating thing as well. I just got an adequate fill last week, so I'm still learning how to eat. It can be frustrating, but I've learned to like Jello and my protein shakes, and I'm learning to eat slowly and to savor what I eat. You will get there too, just be easy on yourself, otherwise you will talk yourself out of good habits you could be developing. {Been there, and that doesn't work.}