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A Levi's shirt I wore in college.

I'm proud of you for taking risks. We deserve joy and fun. I'm sorry for the struggle and embarrassment at the end, but soon those incidents will be a thing of the past. Keep LIVING!

I had a one pound gain this week. Grr! I have a fill appointment Tuesday and maybe a tiny fill is in order. I lost two pounds all month. More walking!! More protein!!! I love Onederland and I'm not going back!!

199.2 11/30/2014

You're not wrong. Don't give in when it's uncomfortable for you. When you want physical attention, it won't scare you. Until then, it's unwanted, and nothing wrong with leaving. Stay true to yourself.

Weird day Friday after Thanksgiving. It started great, and at 1pm I had my usual moderate lunch of hummus, celery and a protein bar and then nothing afterwards, because I moved my fasting day to Friday. At 8:30pm I had two sudden, unexplained, non productive waves of stomach nausea with convulsing and lots of saliva. Nothing in me except decaf coffee with cream. I feared I was getting a stomach bug, so I went to bed early and by morning I was fine. It was scary because I have not vomited since being banded eight months ago. It could have been worse. I was afraid of a band slip, but it was fine today. I had a late breakfast and ate some turkey and potatoes without problems. Weird, weird, weird!!!

Nope. Can't feel the band ever. Even during stuck episodes I feel tight but can't really tell where the band is. And when I get unstuck, I don't feel any whoosh of relief either. I just realize later I've stopped being miserable. The port? Sticks WAY out and is very visible since surgery. I don't care. That's the least of my problems.

Oh no. I think a bug has hit me tonight. I had a normal lunch at 1pm (hummus, celery and a Quest bar) and nothing after that because I'm doing a modified fast. Felt just fine until 8:30pm. On an empty stomach I suddenly had waves of nausea that made me convulse. No food in me, so it wasn't band related. Nothing came out but saliva. I can hear my stomach churning and I thought maybe it was extreme hunger from no food for almost eight hours. So I ate two small Melba toasts. Another wave came a few minutes later, but the toasts stayed down. It feels like it may pass, but I decided to lie down for the night and not push it. I'm just nervous about vomiting. I haven't had a nausea episode since banding 8 months ago. I know that retching can cause a band slip. Any ideas how to make an episode like this less traumatic for the stomach? I found that if I coughed gently while it was happening, it didn't feel so violent to my stomach. Sorry this is so graphic, but I'm scared silly of having my band slip.

It passed. All I can think of is maybe there was bad cream in my coffee. That was all I had in the evening and it wasn't much. I was prepared for a night of trouble but it didn't happen. Whew!

That's what it's all about. Congratulations!

I was always "chubby" and overweight enough to be teased. I remember my first diet. I was about age 12 and I decided to lose some weight. I did manage to lose 20 pounds. But it came right back on. I think I was 120 pounds when I started and 100 when I finished. But like I said, it came right back on. I started high school at 150 pounds. That was heavier than my friends, and I was embarrassed. I joined Weight Watchers during high school, and lost, again, the same 30 pounds over and over again. I started college at approximately 200 pounds and gained about 15 or 20 my first semester. I went on a high Protein no carb diet, and by my sophomore year had managed to get down to about 160 pounds. During my early 20s, I went up to about 220. Then I became a caretaker for my grandmother. After she died, I began eating uncontrollably. I ended up at around 305. Through OA, I got my weight down to 156 pounds. I met my husband, and got married. I gained 11 pounds on my honeymoon. Over the next several years I had two children and two more pregnancies that ended in miscarriage. My weight went up with each child and pregnancy. My weight was around 220-250 pounds for most of this time. I tried Weight Watchers again, and again, the same 30 pounds were lost and regained. A couple of years ago, my marriage started to go downhill very quickly. My eating was my comfort and my weight climbed. I topped out at 302. I made the decision to have WLS in September 2013. I was banded in March 2014. Life is getting better now, and I hope to achieve my goal weight by next summer. I am in the early stages of divorce after moving out of my home this summer. Reading this to myself, I can see that grief and stress were definite triggers for me during my highest weight gains. When I look back at pictures of me as a child, I was chubby, but certainly not obese. It is so sad how we see ourselves. And the judgments that we place on ourselves. I remember reading in Reader's Digest magazine, when I was 8 years old, an article about weight. It said that statistically, if a child is overweight at age 10, she will be overweight her entire life. That scared me. I was already 8. Sure enough, at age 10, I was still overweight. It almost seemed like my destiny. I feel sad for that child now. I lived in anxiety about my weight my whole life.

Hear hear! So true. I'm not at goal weight yet but I made some minor exceptions to my eating plan for Thanksgiving. It was all good and I'm not tempted today in the least. On top of that I'm having a modified fasting day today (instead of my normal Thursday) on 5:2 so that's a good "reset" for me today. It feels so good to be in control this week!

Congratulations !!!!

I had a great Thanksgiving. I didn't go crazy. I sampled some special foods. But I grazed and that's the one thing I haven't done since surgery. Today I'm back to my regularly scheduled programming, but WOW I'm hungry! I'm going to remember this feeling for Christmas. Grazing has side effects! Hope you all had a lovely day. No regrets here. ????

Fasting Friday this week. It was hard to wait until 1pm for my lunch because I was pretty hungry this morning. I grazed a bit on Thanksgiving and that's a habit I don't want to go back to. Today, back on track!

My Big Meal is a healthy goal-weight body. I hope to get there by next spring/summer. I love this message. For so long, eating was my goal, my reward, my motivation. My life has changed now and a long, happy, healthy life with a strong, healthy, slim body is my new Big Meal. Thanks for this post.

It was a great day. I have much to be thankful for. My food was more than usual yesterday but today is back to normal. My new normal! Love my band. Love BariatricPal.

Grazed more than I planned but it's okay. Tomorrow back to normal!

Prep cooking is done. No binging on turkey skin this year. I won't lie. I tasted it. But the rest went in the trash. I am so happy to have this LapBand on my favorite holiday. What a difference from last year. Happy Thanksgiving to all of you wonderful BariatricPal peeps. I'm very grateful for all of you.

I wish I could tell you how wonderful you'll feel by next Thanksgiving. It's all worth it. Hang in there!

I'm hosting as I always do. One thing that always helps me eat less is hopping around serving people. The small break between bites when jumping up to get this and that gives my stomach time to realize it's satisfied. I will have food left on my plate but it's okay. And nobody pays attention anyway.

Just found my turkey day reading. Thanks !!

I had to give up tv eating as a condition of surgical psychological approval. As an adult I never had the tv in the kitchen, but we would all wander into the living room with our plates. I've been tv eating free for a year now.

Holy crap. I am so not obsessed about the turkey that I binged on every year before WLS, that I forgot to take the damn thing out of the freezer. I always roast it the night before Thanksgiving. It generally defrosts in the fridge for about five days. So, it will be defrosting in a tub of water tomorrow to accelerate the process. I've had to do that once or twice before, so it's not a crisis, but the fact that I FORGOT about defrosting it is stunning to me. This from the girl who binged on crispy turkey skin every year. There's hope for me yet.

I lost 130 pounds in OA 25 years ago but then got married, dropped the program, returned to binge eating, and gained it all back. I was banded in March this year and rejoined OA in August. It is helping me immensely. I also began attending Codependents Anonymous this year. Life without excess food, my drug of choice, is hard. These programs help me learn new coping mechanisms. Good luck.