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Never made it to the surgeon's office yesterday thanks to more snow and a traffic jam caused by an accident. I talked to the NP on the phone and told her I wasn't wanting a fill anyway, so I'll reschedule for three weeks from now. Feels weird to miss an appointment, but at least I can delay my 2015 deductible cost for a month!!

Liz, you are my hero.

Sorry about the mishaps. Good for you for not medicating with baked goods. Haha my autocorrect changed baked to naked. I think medicating with naked goods might be okay. Exercise even.

I enjoy reading this thread. I tried 5:2 for several weeks and it helped me break a stall. I've since returned to three meals a day, but I do see the benefit of this method.

Get some good rest.

Yep, you're ready.... But your doc may wait a couple more weeks. Mine was six weeks post op. I was ready earlier but that was his protocol. That satiety feeling you had right after surgery is the elusive green zone we aim for with fills. I'm at my green now and have been for a few months. I'm eleven months post op. It took 5 fills for me to get here and (I think) stay here. It's worth the wait. Do it slowly and don't get too tight. Good luck !!! It gets so much easier when the hunger is gone!

I have a follow up appointment tomorrow but I won't be getting a fill. I seem to be in good green lately. One weird thing though is how my port feels to the touch. When I put my fingers on it, it feels like I could move it around quite a bit under the skin. Even turn it over if I tried. Of course I don't but that's how mobile this thing feels lately. It didn't feel this way when I was still over 200 pounds. Anybody else's port move around a lot under the skin?

I'm sorry I have no helpful advice. I just wanted to tell you I hope they can figure it out for you. I went from almost a dozen prescription and OTC pills a day down to one blood pressure pill and a chewable vitamin. I don't leave my fill appointments unless I can swallow two arthritis Tylenol caplets. I've been at green for a couple of months. I'm almost 11 months post op.

Lol

Happy birthday and congratulations !

Do you tag your friends when you check in?

Nineteen inches of snow here in Chicago. Doggy can't find a happy poop spot outside.

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Thanks I'll check it out.

Or "checking in" everywhere they go. ??? Hey creepers!! Follow me around!! I don't get it. One of my best friends checked in to a Panera restaurant and tagged me too. Wth? You want stalkers, fine, but leave me out of it! Maybe I'm a little sensitive cause my NSETBEx is a creeper. But sheesh.

Wow. I guess there's an audience for anything.

I'm distinguishing between head and stomach hunger much better these days. I'm a bander. My head hunger feels restless and antsy and specific to a comfort food. My stomach hunger is more an annoyance, a growling, a task I have to take care of, and satisfied by a moderate amount of nearly anything. When both hit at the same time I'm in trouble. So lately I've been eating lunch earlier (noon instead of 1:30) and dinner as soon as I get home (5.30). This tends to prevent me from getting too hungry to make sensible choices. If I'm obsessing about the perfect dinner, I try to focus on why I'm agitated. Then I try to get my butt out of the house right after dinner. I attend 12 step meetings and that helps a lot. I'm a food addict, but I know many folks who are not. Some of them are in the mildly obese category. They don't obsess about food or diets like I do.

It's really hard not to have coffee this weekend since I'm snowbound here in Chicago today. But I'm drinking water.

What podcast? I'm always on the hunt for good ones. I like Tips of the scale and Life Changing Stories.

196.6 02/01/2015. Up two pounds. Too many calories all week. Back on track today!!

1827 calories Friday with 24 flights of stairs. 2265 calories Saturday with no exercise except a short walk with the dog. I paid the price and am up 2 pounds at my weigh in today. We are snowed in in Chicago today. I'm making a pot of split pea Soup. Committing to 1200 calories and a walk with the dog today.

Thank you all for your support. Mom and I had a good calm talk at the restaurant tonight and I started by apologizing for the havoc this divorce brought into all our lives. She was calm and listened. I explained that if there were any other way to do this I would, but I can't. My lawyer offered to talk to my mom and I told her that. She seems to have mellowed a little bit since yesterday. I think it was going to the wake of my friend's mom and seeing some of my friends she hasn't seen in years. Everyone's older and it tends to bring back memories. Also, she was sitting with me when a couple of people were voicing support for my leaving NSETBEx. Because my friend was one of the besties who helped me move out of the house the day I filed, she had shared my story with her family who hasn't seen me in years. They were being encouraging and supportive, and my mom was sitting there listening to them call me "brave" and "strong". So by the time we left and went to dinner, I think she had a bit of a different outlook. I also explained that the stress of worrying about this is starting to make me literally sick, and I have to find relief from it at some point or I'm going to go crazy. I also pointed out that what other options did either one of us have? I'm the only one she could rely on to be on these accounts with her, and I can't stay married to him. So it is what it is. It's also apparently standard discovery procedure in most divorces. Maybe not friendly divorces, but definitely in contested ones. She expressed her desire to see him "get what's coming to him", and I told her, truthfully, that I've moved past that feeling already. I just want him gone. I don't wish him ill or seek revenge. I just want this over (fairly) and done. God will sort it out in His time. Karma is real and I don't need to carry that around in my heart. She's going to help me with the papers. We came home and watched Scandal together, and now I think I may actually get a good night's sleep for the first time in two weeks. Thanks for the kind words and the advice. It really really helps.

I need some emotional support, friends. Going to a friend's mom's wake after work with my own mom. After that, Mom and I are going to dinner and we will talk. She's been very upset and angry because my divorce discovery process requires me to produce three years of bank statements on all accounts on which I was a signer in any way. This means all the accounts my mom has where I was or am the second signer in case anything ever happened to her. Basically everything she has. She's furious and lashing out at me because her privacy is being violated due to my divorce. She hasn't spoken to me all week until today because we have this wake to attend. I called my lawyer to ask again if her account statements were necessary and she said they absolutely are so that I comply with the discovery requirements and am not in contempt. This is the kind of crap that makes divorce a living hell. I'm just venting, but some cyber hugs would be really welcome today. Those of you on the other side --- tell me again that this will someday be over. Please.

Beautiful!!! Love the color and the cut!

Oh another thing I do is listen to inspirational podcasts on my iPod. Examples are Life Changing Stories and Tips of the Scale, and 12-step recovery podcasts.